Again we implemented our change but tonight mommy took over story time because I go to play pool on a Wednesday, we had tea as usual and then Reagan and me went to run a bath while mommy washed the pots (which she volunteered for…!)

Reagan had been a little under the weather all day mommy said being a lethargic and very clingy toward mommy which is a little concerning but she was fine when I got home although not 100% and once she was bathed it was business as usual. She was showing all the tired signs and was falling asleep while mom lotioned her up.

I left the room after saying I love you and good night and left mommy to read “Together” a book I will get a link for tomorrow when I go into her room? Mommy said she was still awake when she finished the book but was relaxed and content so she must have drifted off while mommy and I talked about her in the next room.

It’s still working BOOO!

Sasha's little present I found this morning in the kitchen?

“Who’s cat is it anyway?” I don’t think even Jamie knows lol but for the record she enticed it into the house soon after she arrived on this island and said she would look after it, so I agreed because I knew it would make her happy. Since then I have looked after the cat because Jamie went and got herself pregnant ALL the time and gave me that as an excuse why she can’t empty cat litter, clean up the lawn or as we call it the killing field etc

I think the present, or as I like to call it a slaughtered female blackbird carcass, was for me because she knew with Jamie and Reagan in bed still it would be me cleaning it up AGAIN!

P.S. We will get that laminate flooring as soon as we can afford it lol

Tonights story was “The Most Precious Thing” which I read to Reagan again as she lay in her cot drinking her milk, no tears, no fuss she just lay there listening intently. Although I am sad about the change, Reagan seams happy about it and she drifted off to sleep as she did last night contented.

Its nice to think that the sound of my whispering voice reading a story is comforting and reassuring enough for Reagan to relax and go to sleep (or maybe Dad’s just mind numbingly boring and sleep is just such sweet release?) which I will learn to love as much as I loved cradling her to sleep.

…..my most precious thing easily more precious than a sparkling blue stone, a velvety rose, a downy feather, and a dancing butterfly!

Oh Reagan, one day you’ll look back with pride knowing I never showed you up or embarrassed you….ever!

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I sit here writing this after a bedtime change, we decided a while ago that when we return from holiday we need to move Reagan along at bedtime but until the last few days she has been far from settled so we had put it off. I think also I haven’t wanted to because I know our change involved us laying her in her cot to drinlk her night time bottle while one of us reads her a story, instead of cradling her to sleep in our arms….

So we decided tonight was the night and once mommy had said goodnight and I love you like she always does I laid Reagan in her cot and settled beside her with a book to read her a story. After a little initial confusion she happily held her own bottle and listen intently to dads whispered voice as she drank and loved it when I showed her the pictures before I turned the page. The book was Love You Forever and while I read i watched her eyes become very heavy and the bottle droop until I had to hold it for her so she could drink the last drops. When the bottle was empty I replaced it with a dummy and because I had just finished the book I read the last page again and as I did her eyes closed and she was asleep.

It has left me with mixed emotions because I am surprised and somewhat pleased that our small change went well for a first attempt, in fact it was perfect, but it also makes me sad that I may never have my little baby girl laying in my arms as she drifts off to sleep, ever again, because she’s growing up so fast she’s a baby no more….!

I hate me life being up tipped and since we got back from the States it has been, with jetlag, teething, a new job, finding a second car the list goes on!
I am someone who thrives on routine and knowing what I am doing because that’s what I always do. That may sound boring to some but for me if I have a system, a routine I can stray from it anytime I like and have fun etc knowing I can slip straight back into my life straight after…it works for me, so the last couple of weeks have been pretty tough to get through although Jamie has made it a lot easier than it would have been without her!
So little miss jetlag slept from 8 last night until 9:15 this morning so we can safely say jetlags no longer an issue. Teething is under control. Now after some turbulent nights but once we or should I say mommy sussed the problem and we dosed Reagan up with Ibuprofen and Bonjella the real Reagan appeared pretty quickly.
My new job is going well I started the day after we got home and 2 weeks on I think its going well although there is a lot to get me head around but all new jobs take time to get into. It has meant changes in our lives because I now commute which means the need for a second car which is an EXPENSE to say the least although I do think we dropped on the right one and its sat on the driveway now. I have to leave earlier in a morning having ironed a shirt and shaved, 2 things I didn’t do before and having made me butties too because I no longer come home for lunch so if Reagan is asleep when I leave I only see for an hour or so at night! Makes me a little sad but it is quality play time so its not all bad.
The second car has been a drain on the finances even though the car itself cost the amount we wanted to pay, the insurance companies take great pleasure in bleeding you dry with their clauses and extras you can’t do without? All that said I think getting lost in Greater Manchester last weekend meant we have a nice little Ford Fiesta Freestyle sat on the drive.
As well as all this to blog the nice stuff that was going on too well I had no time or the inclination but I will endevour to catch up and get back to regular blogs as well!

“A bit of dirt never hurt anybody”

Arrived home tonight to find mommy on the front yard talking to our neighbour, who is also pregnant, while Reagan sat by the doorstep playing in soil. It was the first time I had seen her enjoying getting her hands dirty in the mud.

She was loving feeling it and touching it I was sort of pleased she didn’t feel the need to find out what it tasted like, but I suppose it’s only a matter of time before that happens lol

It’s the last day of May and it’s freezing so we lit the fire, which hasn’t been lit since last year so Reagan had never seen or felt it working and it was fascinating to watch her. It had been lit for a while so the room was warming up when she crawled past and she stopped and felt her face, she then turned away when she couldn’t work out what was on her face. She then kept turning back for a moment then turning away she then started trying to touch the warmth but no matter where in the air touched she couldn’t find what it was? After a few seconds she started to work out it was the bright fire behind the fire guard and moved towards it although she was apprehensive (and there was no danger) she had worked out where it was coming from even if she didn’t know what it was! Touching the guard then looking at her hand was also fascinating to see too because I imagine it was wierd that warm was sticking to her hand but there was nothing to see?

All this soon lost its appeal and she went on her way but for me it was one of the most interesting things I’ve ever seen!