JACK
27 MAY 1997 to 13 SEP 2011
Rest in Peace, buddy!
I’ll miss you by my side!
My Dearest Little Boy,
Well I am sat here, oh so very pregnant, 3 days overdue in fact, just willing you out into the world and ultimately into my arms. Pregnancy is one of the hardest things a woman ever has to do in her life but the end result is this perfect little baby that I’ve waited my whole life for. I’ve dreamed of my children since I was a small girl and I’m dying to know you in real life.
Being overdue, I have to say, is very difficult because as much as I love feeling you wiggle and squirm and being so close to you and knowing that this is a time that you and I will have together and that nobody will ever be closer than we are at this very moment, I am still struggling with my inability to sleep, move, breath just do normal every day things. I feel so strong and ready to bring you into this world and I just can’t help but wonder why you can’t sense this and just come out? I’m desperate to meet you little man…desperate!
So while you are squashed up in my tummy your daddy and sister and I are impatiently waiting for you to arrive? All we do is talk about you and try and daydream about how are lives are going to change once you are here. I try and picture holding you and your sister in my lap and it actually brings tears to my eyes. I love you more than you’ll ever know. You’ve been kind of quiet today and it always makes me worry that something is wrong but just as I write this you are kicking so hard the laptop is actually moving from side to side….guess you can feel me eh little one? You must know that I am sat here thinking of nothing but you.
Well I’m off to rest up for you as much as I can and pray and dream of the moment we first lay eyes on each other. I just hope I can be the mommy you need me to be and never let you down
All my love little Linc hope to see you soon
mommy
When Reagan’s making noise she’s fine and there is nothing to worry about but when it all goes quiet you need to go find out what she’s into and hopefully its nothing dangerous or naughty so yesterday on a lovely sunny evening we noticed she was quiet…
I want to be a model…
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Not found time over the last couple of days to blog yet I would think most of the people that read this blog would have been looking and checking…?
Yesterday was “The due date” and I for one didn’t think we’d get there but I am sat here now with Jamie 40+1 and thats not me age by the way ‘oh wait…?” We are no nearer a son than we were a week ago, it’s difficult because our life is now on hold until his birth and we just want to love him when he finally appears…
Please come tonight or tomorrow because sunday would not be ideal, that’s all I’m saying!
I can't stop looking at them ma, they're the best wellies EVER!
Jamie is getting a bit frustrated now with only a day to go until her due date, even though I think she is doing fantastic. Branston Pickles are annoying regular and ver severe at times but fade away just when we think it’s game on? Yesterday we had an excelent midwife / consultant appointment at the hospital where the consultant explained everything with absolute clarity what was going to happen this time and why things didn’t happen the way Jamie wanted it to last time. She called Reagan a big ‘ed and Jamie’s pelvis inadequate lol both medical in reason and description but at least we were told what happened and that in NO WAY would it be anyone’s fault this time if it didn’t go to plan again! I think Jamie actually listened and understood this and although she and they will give her every chance of a natural birth this time the result must in the end be a healthy momma and a healthy baby whatever happens.
I was very reassured that we were going to be looked after and now after the appointment we have the plan in place to make sure we know where we’re going (I just hope the Midwife we told on doesn’t get into too much trouble…but it needed bringing to thee attention because she was very dismissive of us and made us feel like we were not important!)
While there Jamie was give a SWEEP and when I say SWEEP I mean SWEEP! She said afterwards it felt like she was using her whole hand and not just two fingers jeez she hadn’t felt pain like that since the conception (lol) It brought on lots of contraptions and we were very hopeful last night but we woke this morning still pregnant still waiting and still frustrated but hey…
“he’s not due yet!”
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After bathtime tonight we dried Reagan off, lotioned her and dressed then instead of laying her in bed and reading a story Jamie suggested I lay in the chair and cuddle with Reagan, which is something I really enjoyed and really really miss at bedtime.
So I laid on the chair with Reagan on my chest with her arms around my neck and she drifted of to sleep almost immediately and it was just fantastic to have that time together again.
HEAVEN!
Sometimes when you’ve had enough and just need to relax in the sun with a cool breeze wafting over you, an ice cold drink to hand and your kindle there if you want it….I can accommodate…and maybe just maybe you can forget just for a second that you’re 4 days from your due date and extremely pregnant!
Oh and Reagan was tired too!