I have a nagging worry that, I thought my heart was filled when I met and married Jamie and could never have thought that I would find any space in there for anyone else. Even though we had planned to have children I did not understand how or what loving your child meant? When Reagan came along I was bowled over by how much I could love my child and I have loved every moment of my time with Jamie then Reagan and I have to find equal space for Lincoln too who is such a beautiful baby but worry how to balance it all…?

…even so

I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with them and work it out as I go!

We woke at 06:10 and got our selves together I know Jamie was upset that labour hadn’t progressed at all over night but we said our goodbyes to Reagan and set off to the hospital arriving at hospital just before 8 (see High Blood Pressure and the following one’s)
The surgeon came to us and explained perfectly our options and I saw Jamie realise it was HER decision but her decision had implications on the health and safety of our unborn child and after over 30 hours since her waters broke she realised it would be dangerous to attempt a natural birth but it was still her decision. In the end some soul searching she consented to a planned C Section and she was thinking of her unborn baby and knew it was the right thing.
After that things happened pretty fast were told to get ready and Jamie was then whisked off to be prepped and I was left to get my baggy greens on and wait to be called
In theatre we were holding hands and whispering to each other but it was very swift and at 11:55 Lincoln Jay gave thunderous cry to anounce his arrival and Jamie and me sighed with relief On the radio I remember hearing Don’t want to miss a thing by Aerosmith and thought it was so apt.
I was then sent away by Jamie to follow Lincoln where I watched the Pediatrician give a clean bill of health then got to cut a HUGE cord and noticed a lot of white merconium on his bum which the midwife pointed out was unusual considering the 9 days overdue?
Thumbs up to momma as she lay in the other room, speaking of thumbs Lincoln was not 4 minutes old and he was sucking his thumb and if he wasn’t he was sucking and routing for anything else to suck I think needing mommy and booby lol
Lincoln and I then sat with momma while she was sewn back up and then went to recovery to wait her arrival
As with my last visit to that room I wanted to let Pam know first that she was a Grandma this time for a second time though. It means alot to me to make Pam as big of a part of all this and our lives in general and little thing like sending her the first message and the first picture I hope goes some way to doing that!
As I handed Jamie Lincoln and she sorted out skin to skin contact, then wrapped both up again I handed her, her Blackberry and then it was a free for all on sending out our news and ‘boy’ did it spread fast lol
After a little worrying blood pressure tests where Jamie showed very low pressure some fluids brought them back up and we went up to the ward where we began to reflect on what we ahd just done and to get to know Lincoln.

Welcome to the world Lincoln Jay.

Born at 11:55 17 September 2011

8lbs 11.5oz

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Just been told to gown up so its going to be a little while before I post again

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Always enjoy the “I’ll be getting blood from you now!” And I will always smile because I know it’s going to be a while and not now, Jamie has no veins?
I was right 2 attempts and send for a doctor!

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Just waiting again but being monitored now, everything is fine.

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Just had. To make the decision to have a C Section but it was made easier by Dr de Silva explaining very well why it the best option!
Though Jamie found it difficult to say yes to, and she still feels that this is a failure on her part she will have it right in her head quickly and this will allow her to move on and continue to be the BEST mom to Reagan AND Lincoln!

I will add that in no way does anyone else see a C Section as “failure” because it isn’t its just the best way to bring our babies into the world safely!

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No not Jamie me be here for 8 and do not be late said the consultant yesterday!
We were here for 8, actually 5 minutes before and checked in at the desk. 1e were then told to wait in the visitors room and I will tell the midwife you’re here…
Its now 8 50 and Jamie just returned from the desk to ask why the hell are we still sat here waiting when my waters went 36 hours ago and the consultant stressed don’t be late? To be told It is Saturday love and have you had your tablets? Not the best thing to say to her as her reply was I don’t care if its frickin’ Christmas Day all I care about is my son inside me…and what frickin tablets no-one has spoken to us since I spoke to you nearly an hour ago? Your antacids love, can I see you’re green notes OFFS give me strength! You have my notes I gave them to you when you asked for them on arrival!
She is now sat by me again in the waiting room huffing and puffing trying to calm down!

STILL WAITING?

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OK at precisely the time I was posting “7 days over due” Jamie’s waters broke so it was I told a little white lie as I knew then it was game on and it had started but I think you should forgive me that….?
Went to Hospital to get checked out and were told because there was no labour and because of a previous C Section Jamie will have to stay in Hospital. This was so they could constantly monitor her….er their idea of constantly monitoring her is possibly every four hours if someone is available take her vital statistics (and I don’t mean the size of her chest either lol!
We asked to see the Specialist who had told us this and explained to him that we don’t need to stay in hospital as we would be back in 20 minutes if anything happened and he agreed so we went home, and went for a walk in the rain (typical)

We went to Winsford for a Sub and I got the shits from it and spent the rest of the day not too far from a bog although we did walk to mums to pick the Beaganator up and walked back but alas all the walking still didn’t establish labour

We spent the evening watching telly mommy’s belly which was moving about alot jeez who or what is in there and is he trying to find the way out or just stretching?

I’m glad we avoided 911 and I am glad I didn’t lose Jack on the same day as our son decided to make an entrance, but I think it’s now time and I know Jamie is READY!

If he doesn’t come soon decisions may have to made but for now we wait…