A couple of friends stopped me in the street as I pushed Reagan into town and one of them said “I bet you didn’t think your life would turn out like this did you?”

I have to admit when I named my blog ‘My Life Changing’ I thought it would change and that would be that…

I’d just got married to a wonderful lady I was about to turn 40 years old and the birth of our first child was imminent and I just thought that it would all happen then on the other side I would carry on living? By ‘living’ I mean you only know the past you can’t predict the future and I based my future on being the same as my life before, little did I know that our life before would change so much and keep changing and changing and everytime for the better!

I love what we’re doing, it makes me happy! I love the way we’re doing it too my life has changed dramatically and quickly but I couldn’t ask for it to happen IN A BETTER WAY AND WITH A BETTER PERSON! We are VERY lucky to have gotten pregnant and had two gorgeous children so quickly and we will forever be thankful for that fact but it means we can now move on to being the family we wanted to be living the kind of life we want to live!

Will or can my life change anymore than it already has? I guess we’re going to find out….

While mommy is in the bath I get to finally have go at nursing a sleeping Lincoln Jay!

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Last night was as good as it gets Lincoln feeds then sleeps in his basket for around two and a half hours which is allowing Jamie to sleep which for 6 days old is fantastic. I was concerned for a while but this is exactly how it should be not killing ourselves with no light at the end of the tunnel, I except a new baby is a lot of work but you have to be able to re coup some energy or you’re heading for disaster.

Right now Reagan and me are downstairs eating breakfast while mommy and Lincoln are asleep upstairs we might all still be tired but I know now Jamie can feed Lincoln and either rest up (with a little help with Reagan) or look after Reagan between feeds.

I think we may survive…

After a tough night Lincoln slept in his basket for 2 hours this morning and it allowed mommy to bathe and regroup, and it allowed me to chill out knowing Jamie was getting some respite. She was wonderful and Lincoln could not have had anyone better to look after him than her, but there was no way she could have continued that and it was stressing me out knowing we were heading for breaking point sooner rather than later!

When he woke he was lucid and although he cried, fed he seemed pretty chilled about being awake and not screaming so Jamie wore him in her “Mobi wrap” and we ate some lunch and talked for seemingly the first time in days. Reagan napped upstairs then came down had her lunch and Lincoln slept in his basket again we did not know what was happening but we liked it?

It was explained to us by the midwife who praised us both for what we were doing and told us that jaundice babies feel ill and need to feed to feel better they also need sunlight and these two things he has been deprived of in someway over the last couple of days because mommies milk was establishing and he has been wrapped up warm in mommies arms too. Today with milk established he started to feel better so we didn’t need to swaddle so the sun got to him and everything starts to get better…

What a fantastic day we have just had, everything was chilled out we played with Reagan we sorted out some paperwork, bought the buggy we want for a fraction of the cost it would be new off Ebay (more on that tomorrow) had visitors and Lincoln slept ate and was awake to meet new people. This was what I dreamed of!

I just needed it explaining to me and to understand what was going on and I would be fine. My biggest fear was family exhaustion because we would have struggled to cope much longer? I write this with Jamie asleep on the sofa, Lincoln asleep next to her in his basket and Reagan asleep in her cot upstairs. We are all tired but maybe we have turned the corner and we can start to live again.

I am sat here with Reagan watching TV, Lincoln is in his moses basket asleep and Jamie is in the bath.

The house is peaceful everyone is chilled and life at the moment really is how I dreamed it to be after his arrival!

Let me take you back to last night about 21:00 mommy was on the sofa with Lincoln feeding and watching teen mom or dad or sumet like that I asked if I could go and play pool to get some fresh air and regain my sanity I was only gone 50 minutes but it didn’t really clear my head. I got home and Jamie was still on the sofa feeding but had this video

This was the first time I had seen Lincoln awake and not screaming or feeding and although a beautiful video I should have been there to see it live. He was asleep in jamie’s arms but if she put him down he freaked and screamed this was not good because we were all tired and we needed to sleep. We tried putting him in his basket and he screamed so Jamie decided to stay downstairs allowing me to get some sleep.

At around 12:30 an hour or so after going to bed Jamie and Lincoln appeared in the room because he was asleep and Jamie snuggled in to me for some much needed bed time but as soon as she got comfy WahWahWah he was screaming again loud enough to wake the whole road. After a difficult few minutes Jamie and Lincoln went back down stairs where they stayed until 7am when I again went to them to find both on the sofa.

Discussing both our nights neither had a good nights sleep although we both got more than if we had all stayed upstairs but we were at a loss what to do because we don’t know why he crying. It was decided to seek advice from the midwife when she arrives to just give us a clue or a suggestion as to where to go with it.

Back to now and he is still asleep WTF is his problem why is he so chilled now? He’s so chilled we are prodding him to make sure there is nothing wrong! Please let us know what it is you need, to be like this all the time and we can do it again and again and again and again and again and…..