The last couple of nights we seemed to have found a routine that was working where I would get home at 6 and help the house hold get tea and have some quality family time too. We then move into bath and bedtime as normal bathing both and getting Reagan into bed and asleep by 8ish, which is good because it is integrating Lincoln into the usual evening routine.

After that we sort the house out and watch a bit of telly to wind down ourselves calming Lincoln so we can implement the next stage which is that one of us goes to bed while the other “sleeps” downstairs with Lincoln who, although he sleeps needs a lot of work to get him there and to keep him asleep too. He is getting better every night but if we slept him upstairs neither of us would get much sleep so it is the best scenario for now.

At 4am we swap over allowing the one who has been looking after Lincoln to get three and half hours in bed which just about recharges the batteries enough to see you through the day.

Unfortunately last night was disrupted because Reagan was really teething and it means her poop is runny she is snuffly and her mouth is very painful, so she didn’t eat any tea cried all through bathtime and crawled of mommy who was prepared to cuddle her to sleep preferring to be in her cot and left alone 🙁

Through the night she has been waking up and needing comforting back to sleep which meant our rhythm was thrown out and both mommy and daddy have woken up more tired than usual

Lincoln went to the Salinae Centre today and he now weighs 10lbs 7oz a gain of 1lb 1oz WELL DONE Mommy!

Weight history:

13 Oct 2011 – 10lbs 7oz
06 Oct 2011 – 9lbs 6oz
27 Sep 2011 – 8lbs 8oz
17 Sep 2011 – 8lbs 11.5oz

Got home tonight to a VERY stressed and teary mommy, just behind her was a smashed bottle of Thyme all over the kitchen floor…

“Oh dear, not a problem I’ll sort it and the kids just go for a shower!”

“…but I need to put noodles on because the bolagnese is nearly ready!”

“I’ll sort it all just go!”

…and she went. Now the sheer panic of what I had just volunteered for hit me, so i mixed and oz bottle of formula and fed it to Lincoln while chatting to Reagan asking her how her day had gone then when Lincoln was rocking in his new chair (I need to tell you about that!) and Reagan was watching cbeebies I checked tea and hoovered up the mess put the noodles in boiling water and did a tad of washing up. The only thing that went wrong was Reagan had spied my predicament and chose to start eating the Sudicred (anticeptic cream) but never ruffled I laughrd it off and cleaned her up and by the time mommy returned refreshed and ready to go again the house was calm….ish lol?

We had a good night after this where I took Lincoln while mommy got some Reagan time and did bath and bedtime and got Lincoln to sleep in my arms through the whole of the Gadget Show awoot…

I am off to bed now because I start my next shift at 4am and I am hoping for an easier ride than this morning!

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Its 06:15 and I have just spent the last two hours getting Lincoln to sleep finally succeeding but now I am so pissed off and tired that I couldn’t sleep even if I tried!

That was so stressful and unrewarding, when the house is quiet everything is amplified even stress levels.

He is now sound asleep and not in any discomfort so that’s good but getting him there is an absolute battle. Its a good job I have to drive to work or I’d have been on the whiskey just to calm me nerves lol!

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We are finding so hard to get through each day, and I purposely say it like that because at the moment we are just ‘getting through’ each day. I think Jamie is finding it tougher than me because, although Lincoln really is a different baby from two weeks ago, he is very colicly and almost cries constantly if he is not suckling mamma’s boobs or asleep. He is worst at night tending to sleep more during the day until around mealtime when he awakes and sounds like he is in real pain, the sort you get when you lived very poorly for a few days and a gallon of extra strength Gaviscon would not touch it. He draws his knees up to his chest wincing as he does and carries on wincing and straining all night only really stopping when he is feeding. I hate to see him like that and be helpless to do anything!

All this means is we don’t sleep much either of us, taking it in turns to stay downstairs with him just to give the other a chance of sound sleep. The problem with this arrangement is Jamie might go to bed at 21:00 and I look after Lincoln until say 03:00 then we swap and I go to bed until 07:30 when Reagan wakes up. Jamie looks after Lincoln while I get Reagan up, dressed and then get her breakfast I then get ready for work and leave Jamie looking after them both.

It worries me that Jamie has just given birth 3 weeks since, our life is hard right now and I have to leave her at home to cope on her own. I do my best and help as much as I can and yes I don’t think I have ever felt as tired as I feel right now but its nothing in comparison to how Jamie feels.

Is it weak to need help? Is it worse to ask for it? We made our bed we should have to cope and get through this but I think without help we will just burn out? I may be just tired and tomorrow will be better but yesterday while we had visitors we looked pretty good both kids were behaved Reagan was cute Lincoln slept but last night Reagan was over tired and bratty during bath and bedtime and Lincoln screamed the place down for hours. We can put on a show but for how long before something gives?

Jamie and me Reagan and Lincoln we will be fine but while mom and dad are surviving there is no time for us, and that makes for a pretty lonely existance even though we’re side by side. I never ever wish a moment of my life away but it’s so tempting to wish we could move forward to a few weeks from now with a colic free Lincoln.

This photo is adorable…in my opinion

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Ian and Patty are probably my favourite people and we ALWAYS look forward to seeing them so when they said they would like to come and meet Lincoln but would also like it to be surprise for Jamie we decided they should sneak up to the house upon their arrival. I won’t go in to the finite detail but I will say that Jamie was COMPLETELY surprised!

In life as an adult you don’t get many nice surprises but Jamie loved this one and it has been a tonic she needed at just the right time.

We had a lovely day going out for lunch to the Brighton Belle then to Polar Palace to allow Reagan a runaround and after that just spent the rest of the day and some of the night at home chatting and eating a curry for tea. We also bought a little cake for Patty who’s birthday we missed last week

Aunt Patty stop pissing and cut the frickin' cake

A top top day with great people

THANKS GUYS you made my day and you REALLY did make Jamie feel a whole lot better! As always though we have to say goodbye but I’m sure it won’t be long before we see you again!

Sometimes a surprise visit by great friends is just the tonic!

Mommy just sent me these from her phone!

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Lincoln is asleep on the sofa and has been there for nearly an hour with any contact with momma or dad he is just sleeping…

Its so good to see mommy being free from him and him being content and relaxed apart too. I know that we still have tough nights ahead but at 18 days old he is changing and improving everyday.
Mommy has changed her diet cutting out chocolate milk cheese and dairy in general drinking probiotic yogurt and Lincoln is on Infocol and Dentanox colic relievers. Its working and maybe just in time for his 3 week growth spurt which mommy has prepared for by purchasing Roseanne seasons 4 and 5 to watch while feeding through the night lol

We will see I guess but one thing is certain I love his family of mine!

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