We got the early morning call at 04:30 by a crying Lincoln but he didn’t seem too bad and was appeased by a bottle of milk allowing me to creep downstairs leaving mommy to sleep and not disturbing Reagan. In the living room Lincoln proved all was not well by presenting me with 3 poopy nappies in quick succession which is just what I wanted to be doing instead of being curled up next to Jamie asleep.

After the nappies he became a lot brighter although I have to say still under the weather but his temprature had passed and he was happy pottering around the living room exploring his surroundings like normal. At about 5:15 I heard Reagan running around upstairs so went to get her and after a nappy change gave her milk and yogurt like she asked for but we sat on the sofa to eat it and she seemed tired at such an early hour but as time passed she became more and more lethargic until Mommy witnessed her clamber onto the sofa where she then stay…and didn’t move.

So now both of them were suffering and after a dose of Calpol and Auntie Biotics each they slept

I had to wake this little baby because it was getting late and she wouldn’t sleep at night but she looked so comfy!

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Last night I got home to an empty house because Jamie had been invited to take the children to a party at Woodside Golf Club and they were on there way but hadn’t made it home yet. I wasn’t home long before I saw her car coming up the road from the bedroom window and was surprised to see Reagan awake in the back because usually she falls straight to sleep in the car? I went out to meet them and asked Reagan what she had been doing and she told me she’d been to a party with Thomas, Isla Josh and mates lol. Jamie informed me as I carried Lincoln into the house that she had never stopped running around all afternoon playing tick with all the other kids, so she will be tired out and also both had eaten their own weight in butty’s so won’t need much tea either.

As we got into the kitchen Reagan tugged on Mommy’s shirt and said “Nigh Night mommy, please?” clearly showing signs of exhaustion and just wanting to go to bed but at 17:30 it would have been a disaster so we cooked up a plan of Peppa Pig on telly to keep her occupied give Lincoln a bottle and then give them a tea cake each and a drink for tea to do the routine as normal.

It worked a treat and by the time Reagan was laid in her cot she was nearly asleep so I just stroked her hair and she drifted off

This was the sentence Jamie BBM’d me yesterday when she was struggling to entertain Reagan and Lincoln on a summers day in the garden but she was suffering with her back and could not keep up with them. I know what she means though because when I am at home Reagan is very active and very interested in everything and it is hard to keep her safe from herself sometimes when, whatever it is could be sharp, hot, heavy, poisonous or any of the other harmful things. Then add on to that her tantrums and screaming you do make you constantly be around her saying no all the time.

Alot of the time telling her no is a queue for a tantrum and then its more “No’s” followed by time out, all this is very tiresome for all and although I know the discipline we are engraining into her will hopefully stay with her and make her a good person in the long run I do worry that she may look back and think her early years were horrible.

My earliest memory I think is seeing diggers building Cledford infant school which would make me 3 years old and I certainly remember at 4 years old my first day at school watching my mum walk away leaving me…but I do not remember being 2 at all? So maybe to a certain extent it doesn’t matter how we instill these core values now because the process will be forgotten (until she reads this lol) so although the upset will be forgotten so will the happy times too….and out the other end comes a good person!

I had to sit and watch Jamie cry with frustration and extreme pain from a bulging disc in her spine that is making doing almost everything an agonising chore. It makes me feel very frustrated too because I can’t do anything to help her pain, all I can do is everything else, but I can’t be there all day which means she has to look after Reagan and Lincoln.

She has been suffering this bad back for a while now and it’s progressively getting worse to the point this time where she has been referred by our doctor for treatment by an oster osteor…an ostrich? He says he can manipulate it back into place and give her exercises to do to avoid surgery so I’m hopeful but Jamie has lost a little faith right now because she is in so much pain.

I hope she starts feeling some relief soon because I hate seeing her suffer and heaven forbid she has to have an operation because of the recovery time…