“No fun to be alone”

Since ClearCourse implied that they do not see any future in where I work, I have felt really disappointed and embarrassed that I left a job that wasn’t fulfilling me to join a company that for a fleeting moment allowed me to breathe I didn’t have a care between 5 and 9 and just did my job between 9 and 5 it was so refreshing really really refreshing and I loved it.

To now be working from home during this debacle I am now sat in front of my computer in a bedroom not having an adversary, no-one to sound off to or talk through anything. I have absolutely no backing from my bosses or anyone above me or ‘below me’ so I just have no joy in my working life anymore

I have started watching the final song performed by the Sex Pistols at San Francisco Winterland on 14 January 1978 over and over

… because it sums up EXACTLY how I feel right now. I am so frustrated and that video makes me feel better about my feelings!

“ever get the feeling you’ve been cheated”

/by

Big DUB

Not had many wins recently in the pool league but to ight we showed character against a fiesty side who although bottom of the table were level at 2 all and could have caused us problems if we weren’t careful. Eventually running out 7 3 winners, it was nice to play a captains frame to make it 3 2 and take the pressure off the next players on my team.

Didn’t drink again second night on the bounce it felt good to have rest, and although last night was tough, I dro e to pool tonight, which switches off the urge, and it’s easy not to drink.

Whatever happens at work over the next week or so, I have managed to book off the whole festive period and get it approved so they can do what they want I now have the choice be arsed or to not be once their plan is revealed…!

/by

Isolation

Isolated from everything and everyone working from home has become a chore, something to dread. Are they all talking behind my back? Does anyone above me have a clue what the plan is? Everyone has a problem. There is no joy!

/by

Mojo

I know I lack mojo now work means nothing, my whole life ‘stability’ my ‘equilibrium’ is awful right now its so wierd and I don’t like it!

/by

Sunday without football

With Denver on a Bye week I spent my Sunday tidying up he electrics in Mom’s shed listening to football podcasts only interupted by Jamie wanting to be taken to lunch while the kids were at church perfecting next weeks Christmas performance.

Next Sunday Colts vs Broncos a huge game that if we win makes us almost definitely in the playoffs

#GoBroncos

/by

Just want her home

/by

Wham!

Watching the Making of Do they know its Christmas and the performance that made me cry was George Michael just WOW! How good was he…I feel he was the BEST!

/by

Still thinking

I can feel my mood wavering, I’m not worried its just my brain won’t stop.

I put some ‘bloopers’ on YouTube tonight which always makes me laugh and it did

/by

On me own

Work has been something I gave not had to think about for months since I jumped ship from the Willows over to Practice Point to support Assisi but the last couple of weeks I feel like I used to and its the reason it made moving easy.

I find myself thinking about what the hell is going on and if I will have a job next year after they announced that out of 8 people that work there I am the only one safe from redundancy.

It’s annoying because all I want is my life to be simple…

/by

Playoffs…..?

Got up at 01:15am and watched the 7 & 5 Broncos play the 3 & 8 Browns and it was one of those games that makes it worth getting up for. The stats were insane and for it to be the Monday Night national game across the whole of America was ace!

Yes I would have liked to thrash the Browns but 32 – 41 making us 8 & 5 going into a bye week where we can get well and rest up for a push towards our first playoff football since Superbowl 50 was worth feeling tired all day!

#GoBroncos

/by