Spent the night being woken up in pain because the painkillers kept wearing off and it was annoying and I think it really affected the rest of my day because I was never able to feel great. I walked with Reagan and Lincoln to church with Billy as his mornin,  and I felt light-headed thinking I hope I make it home. Its been hard to eat enough to give me energy and with a poor night’s sleep, after trying to battle through the fatigue and had to give in and go to bed, and I slept all afternoon.

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Reagan began her first period today, and that must be pretty scary, but thankfully, her Mom was here to help and guide her through it. I’m not saying I couldn’t have done it but Reagan would not have wanted me to, so I’m sure she is more thankful than me?

There may be a hole between your gob and your nose sign here, and we’ll rip it out…

I trudged through the snow to the dentist this morning to have a tooth ripped out of me head feeling slightly scared but knowing I couldn’t afford the alternatives. A ton eighty to feel fucking terrible and lose part of me and be told for three grand I can have it put back, we’ll see I suppose!

Great win at pool 7 3 against Nadin, yet work is just shit….I just can’t fathom WTF is going on in their minds?

Lincoln had his first drum lesson tonight and I don’t think I have ever heard him so eager and keen to learn something other than XBOX or VR I hope he sticks at it…we’ll see?

As my whole family watched the bottles fall from my backpack and smash on the floor it seemed symbolic that no matter how hard I try life just has no regard for my efforts, it just says Fuck You!

I would never not try my best but to go to work knowing non of my employers would cross the street to piss on me if they saw me on fire makes me feel how I felt tonight as I stood a pathetic failure in front of people that actually love me!

Work holds no joy anymore, only impending doom and misery, and that negativity is like a cancer

Cha cha cha cha change is required!