It always begins at 7am they’re just conditioned not to start the day any earlier but after that free to go! I stood filming like I always do, by 7:30 and both Reagan and Lincoln lived their best life for the next 15 mi uses watched by two very proud parents Grandma and Auntie Nemily.

Reagan just sat and opened the presents she had asked for and looked overwhelmed at times but very Reagan like the rest of the time controlling her emotions showing exactly what she wanted to show.

Lincoln on the other hand just went with the flow reacting to each gift as he opened them until he got to the last one which not only was a surprise it also made him, in his words, “the happiest boy on earth!” He’d asked for bits to repair his failing Oculus 2 VR Headset but Mommy said it was better to buy the new 3S and WOW she nailed parenting with honours!

Nannie joined us for the rest of the day and we had such a relaxing time in each others company with great food and lots of love and laughs!

Perfect!

As we sat watching The Snowman followed by the Snowman and the Snow Dog both Jamie and me looked at our family and were just bowled over by what we did.

As a couple we began in an unconventional way but on the eve of Christmas we are as conventional as we could possibly be sipping wine waiting to be Father Christmas as soon as the kids go to bed

I love my life!!!

To have to go to the supermarket the day before Christmas Eve filled me with dread but do you know what I reckon I could anything with Jamie and enjoy it, and we did!

We sat there tonight, reflecting on the day and how we both faded half way round but it was about buying what we needed to make  Christmas day what we wanted it to be.

We always sit watching TV and think this is the best time we spend together but when it’s wallowing in having started to create Christmas magic it meant a little bit more…

Absolutely no idea why I became all other men and left shopping to the week before Christmas but got it sorted and sat back thinking a trip to Argos Winsford sorts my Santa duties, oh no!

Panic set in when  one of my gifts moved to ‘available 27th’ and I knew I could have got them all physically but chose to use argos because I could do a one stop shop job done.

Yes I got them all today but I had to drive to Crewe and Northwich braving slash tolerating the Christmas crowds lol

Just don’t leave it till the last minute ffs

Not the ending to my work year but hey ho ho ho today was all about getting ready and partying a bit but hey, best laid plans

After getting up a bit later than usual it was great to think we were all done for Christmas and were able to whatever we want to do for the next two weeks!

Errands done I decided to go and see Yvonne’s mum and dad which I always like to do at this time of year

Holidays are coming…!

I learned more about a work colleague in three and a half hours today than I had learned in 8 months and all it took was to listen without prejudice, something I have learned from Jamie.

A young lad that doesn’t talk a lot, very clever but  everyone introduced him as autistic and not talkative is just how expected him to be but our employer has left us the last remaining out of 8.

Maybe that changed things but today I arranged a meeting to discuss the tickets on a list to see if between us we could close of as many tickets and showing trust in his opinion, being confident in the solutions he was giving and most of all listening to what he had to say just opened the floodgates.

At 18:30 an hour and half after I should have signed off for Christmas I reluctantly had to sign off because I had things to do but as I did I knew so much about him and I think he loved telling me his story without being judged and in return I told him my story.

It was probably the best way to finish for Christmas because it made me feel good too…

Not the best day, finally had my meeting with the bosses and was told the plan, and as I suspected they’re all gone everyone except me. There is a plan but nothing in place yet so in their words, it going to be “Bumpy” in the new year. Give me strength!

After the meeting I had to go to the funeral of my cousins husband and that was heartbreaking to watch the two boys talk about their dad.

My mood was not great for the rest of the day I made tea walked Bill and went to bed because the Broncos play at 01:15 so hopefully that will be a win and get Friday off to a better start!

Not having the best time at work right now and apart from Jamie I don’t get a chance to talk to anybody other than customers with problems so it was good to get out and chat with my pool team. Just have a beer and get stuff off my chest was good even though we didn’t win I felt better when I got home.

With work being so annoying at the moment it really does affect my mood they need to tell me what is going on and then I can process it but to make everyone redundant and leave me not letting me know their plan is annoying and worrying

I just need to get to the end of the day and chill a glass of wine and Jamie that’s when I am happiest!

Crying won’t change anything, will worrying make it worse probably so I am going to do neither but that said today I cried when everyone except me were told they do not have a job Merry Christmas and I was left worrying what the hell I am supposed to do now…

I am left working from home alone with 130 customers with my phone number and my bosses don’t have the good grace or where with all to even speak to me and let me know the plan

The reason I cried and the reason I worry is my need to work I need to provide and not let my family down but I can’t die trying! Bad times await!

I just crave joy….