Why can’t I blog

I am finding it so hard to blog I think about it all the time but never actually pick up my phone and write down my thoughts. It’s wierd because I can obsess about getting my thoughts down in writing and have to blog everyday most of the time but just lately it’s been almost impossible to sit and write anything so I have set a goal to blog every day of December to try and motivate myself so here is the first one.

Not much to say other than just got back from a day spent walking in the Lake District and a night in Ulverston with the Phoenix 5

Didn’t do a great deal else today, other than laze around on the sofa walk Billy who was forgotten about while I was away so we went all around the canal paths before it got dark

The Broncos don’t play until tomorrow so I am sat watching the Patriots vs Colts hoping the former helps us out for our possible wildcard spot which we currently hold…!

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As days go?

New job not the greatest but 7 months in to be told while on site that 100+ redundancies are likely but not able to get any facts….as days go I’ve had better

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Every night

This photo sums up just what a great Mom Lincoln (and Reagan) has, after being told he was suffering from verrucas she treats them every night

Best mom in the world!

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I really did something

I looked at my family around the table last tonight while we ate tea, I never saw myself as a parent but what would life have been about if I hadn’t become one. I think I would have been happy maybe content in ignorance of not knowing what it would be like to be a parent, I also think I could have been happy too with the same ignorance?

Now I know what it is like, I can’t imagine being any of the above, if I did not have this that surrounds me, a daughter that is so pretty and intelligent funny and caring who is showing the first signs of becoming a woman as her body begins to change. She has all the hang-ups of a teenage girl but has such good foundations and knows we are always there to help her through that she is crushing life right now and I hope that continues forever.

Lincoln is growing, in every way watching him eat shows the obvious growth and has already gone past his sister and his Mom in the height stakes but his growth in how he is as a human being on this earth is astounding. At 13 years old I did not have anywhere near the presence he has within his surroundings whether that be at home, school or church where he excels. He too is heading to adulthood as his voice is starting to break and his facial hair needs attention. Everyone he meets remarks on what a lovely young man he is and I think he has my sense of humour too so he will make people laugh like I try to do

I love gushing about my family and how happy they make me feel but it was the feeling I got leaving for work that made me write this next bit, walking towards the gate imagining Jamie sat in the office she built next to the house she now lives in working a job she loves that also pays well in England because of me. For that I take no credit, but it does blow me away that she sacrificed so much made the leap took advantage of the opportunity for a new start smiles every day and still wants to be with me?

Me, who just does his best and that seems to be enough….and as I open the gate I just thought I really did something here!

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Ticker

Today was 16 years since Jamie was granted her first Visa to come and live in the UK the reason we know that was because her friends son is thinking of going on a similar journey to ours by dating a lady from Colorado. Jamie told them about UKYankee a website dedicated to helping US citizens through the minefield that is immigration and contains all you would need to know and has professionals online to help too.

When she logged into her account it brough back all the memories of that experience we both went through when we decided we wanted to be together on this side of the pond. There were emails containing some of our courtship banter which reading back was very cringey to read now but also there was a ticker timer at the bottom of the screen saying “15 Years 10 Months 7 Days since moving to Middlewich”

These tickers were torture back then, we looked at them everyday willing them along because they were always counting down to something special, like a visit to be together etc This one has sat there for nearly 16 years and never been looked at…I don’t miss them but it was nice to see such a high number and hope it gets to 32 or 42 or 52…I would be in my 80s and if we are still as happy as we are today that would be evidence that it really was worth all that effort

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Best family night ever

An impromtu game of Yatzee after our tea on Saturday night ended up being one of the best family nights ever with lots of laughs “and no arguing” it was just fun.

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Hair Up

A teenage boy and his hormones, this morning mommy found a distraught Lincoln crying because his hair would not style into the way he wanted. I remember it being tough at that age but I can’t say why everything and nothing most likely but I think I struggled because me dad had recently abandoned us which didn’t help.
I hope we can all stick together and help each other through any “adversity” we encounter.

As for this morning mommy dropped everything including making her breakfast to help out in the hair department saving the day and calming the the boy down so he could take on the world with a perfect do…

Its a rocky road little dude but we got you!

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3 Quarters of dross?

Losing the first two games was easy to take because the Broncos are in a rebuild with a rookie quarterback which is likely to be painful getting worse before it gets better, but to win the next three made you think, maybe?

I love watching the Broncos and how many emotions I go through watching and tonight was no exception being 23 0 down before losing on a failed onside kick with a minute to go 23 16

Primetime TNF next with means 1:30 am het up Friday morning #GoBroncos

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Weightoff

Jamie joked as I popped my head out of my shed “Is it good not to have to do it all yourself?”

I had to get up without talking to her because she was so fast asleep earlier as she has been desperately trying to shake the jetlag before Monday so I left her to sleep

At 10am it was me that blinked first, knowing she intended to go to church. I woke her up after getting back from walking Billy and assisted and encouraged all three out of the door in great time to make the 10:30 sermon

I was in my shed all day until she knocked and I was happy that I really didn’t have to think about anyone else and just chill.

It is great to have her back and settle back into our life which for me just makes me feel happy and contented

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Punkin patch

An annual trip to the Malpas punkin patch was such a let down and I am not sure if Reagan and Lincoln are a little bit too old for what’s on offer. Maybe the magic has gone but we also saw ageing props costumes and a maize maze that was just a walk through a three foot high crop. Was it a bad crop year or was it poor planning, either way we picked our pumpkins and left saying we won’t be back…

We went to Costco to cheer ourselves up with some retail therapy and a cheap tea.

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