Having to concentrate just to maintain good mental health all the time can be stressful in itself but when I go out and socialise it des take me away briefly which is great but tonight my team Steventons won and that felt great.
I potted the winning black and I’ll take that as the sign I had good day
Another night out with Jamie’s mates husbands becoming a regular event in me calendar always on a weeknight and always a couple of pints in the White Bear followed by a Ruby in Blue Ginger
At the moment work is on my mind all the time and no matter what I do or say to my bosses I am ignored and I don’t know why. If I complain without cc’ing in the CEO of the whole organisation I don’t get even a response. NUTS?
Decided to just walk this morning around ‘the Middlewich walk’ and just clear me head Billy loved it, and by the time I got back to the house I hit 8000 steps. With everyone else at church I was about to pour myself a coffee and thought my morning would be better spent letting me mum make me a brew.
My afternoon was lazy although sorting the couch lights, installing another set of shelves in Jamie’s shed and installing a PDF editor on her computer made it productive enough?
Sadly, the best part of my day was Jamie yet sorting out the electrics in the Sheds so my OCD calms the fuck down is more satisfying.
We walked we talked we shopped I dropped, it’s all I want yet I feel great that I did a bit of DIY?
Not a couple that feels the need to waste money on showing love when we do the same thing for the other 364 days of the year because the prices for everything are so hiked.
So when a huge box of flowers turned up at the door as I cooked steaks for the whole family Mommy for almost a minute thought I was the best husband in the world. When she opened the box and saw a dozen roses she beamed as she opened the card… she has the best boss in the world apparently!
Everyone enjoyed the steaks and after washing up we had a game of Outsmarted, Lincoln won.
Just lately its been extremely hard to find the inspiration to blog and I really miss it when I don’t but this afternoon I tried and couldn’t not through lack of inspiration but the hosting had run out. A quick look on the hosting site and it was surprisingly easy to pay them money said no-one ever. Anyway here I am and I pledge to blog everyday until my birthday it’s that sort of pressure to maintain a streak that gets me back writing.
I should have plenty of subject matter things like family conflict, debt, a shit job are just the tip of the iceberg of what is going on right now.
But on a cheerier note:
Reagan has just had the braces removed off her teeth after 2 years and wow what a difference. She is very studious right now taking after her mom loves riding horses and is becoming a right royal pain in the ass as teenage takes hold.
Lincoln is almost as obsessed with VR than he is with looking cool for school he loves drama and is creating the next performnce by his amdram club on Thursday nights but his passion in life right now is drumming practicing what he learns on a Tuesday night every chance he gets at dinnertimes at school.
Mom well she is crazy about god and is about to embark on a course that will see her become a pastor in three years she still works in London but the shine has worn thinner and the London lights are not quite as bright now its become just work. She has so many options that she is not stuck at LWC but for now the guaranteed wage and debt free on the distant horizon means she will stick at it for a while?
Me, I changed my job last April and that job changed on day 2 of my employment and has deteriorated gradually ever since,. I don’t regret moving but feel very un supported in work and it is all very stressful so I am looking for work elswhere to see what is out there and iof the right job appears before this job kills me I will hand my notice in and be gone.
I hate being ignored but I also find it very hard to poke my head above the parapet when I know they won’t listen!
Came to bed crying tonight after watching Lockerbie a 5 part series about a dad that wanted to know why his daughter died and, most importantly, who killed her!
After over 20+ years many governments are still keep the truth from him and I burst into tears mainly because I can’t imagine a yone of my family being taken away from me but I am fully aware of the grief, it just broke my heart that he “wasted” all those years to know as much as he did on day one!
I wished Jamie was awake because I would have hugged her so tightly begged her never to leave me and forgive me for watching the final two episodes without her….
I love my family
She said “I’m so old” although she didn’t really mean it nor did I take much notice as we got ready to go out for a birthday feast at Hickorys Smoke House
The thing I did take notice of was as we went to sleep she said “Best Birthday Ever!”
I love this lady!