Made me smile today when my work colleague announced that ‘things are going to change’ when I said I was struggling to complete a job but would do everything I could to help get the information they needed. He said he won’t be doing that when I leave, which I fully understand because he does  nothing unless he is told to so take me, the person who tells him to do things out of that equatio…

It won’t be my problem but damn I would love e to see how lo g he gets away with it…

Humbling!

Worked hard all day to ‘just do my job’ got home and Jamie and I took the Billster for a walk calling for a cheeky Guinness at Kings Lock before returning home to cook tea for our hungry children

Our time is coming…?

“I’m waiting outside” came the reply as I sat waiting in a layby about a half a mile from Crewe station so it wasn’t long before I pulled in to the rank to collect a very green Jamie!

Apparently travel sick for the last half of her journey I was asked to drive gently, which is not possible on Britain’s roads today because the potholes are very similar to speed bumps. By the time we got home she crawled onto the couch and lay still for and hour until the motion sickness subsided, and she could be home properly.

It’s great to have her back but she definitely needs to take a travel sickness pill before every train journey from now on!

Get up late after coffee in bed

Take the Billster obvs

Get in me shed

Tidy up

Take the Billster obvs but visit pub also

Go home and eat and drink while watching TV

Bed

Basically….?

As Jamie and Reagan returned from their evening out, Lincoln and I were halfway through the film Ghost, and all of a sudden, the fact that Reagan couldn’t find her phone charger became the most important thing?

I had  a great day spending my morning with Jamie sitting in an EE shop losing the will to live waiting for them to give me a pay monthly SIM but also killing time while my car was ‘passing its MOT, being serviced plus being washed and Valeted. I can do anything with Jamie and enjoy doing it too!

With just me and Lincoln tonight we decided on chicken kebabs and Ghost which sounded like a top night…but when I sat there sobbing at the movie and trying to manage him through a movie without talking at all was a tad more difficult than anticipated!

A good Saturday all in all…..?

“My parents were married for 55 years. One morning, my mom was going downstairs to make dad breakfast, she had a heart attack and fell. My father picked her up as best he could and almost dragged her into the truck. At full speed, without respecting traffic lights, he drove her to the hospital.

When he arrived, unfortunately she was no longer with us.

During the funeral, my father did not speak; his gaze was lost. He hardly cried.

That night, his children joined him. In an atmosphere of pain and nostalgia, we remembered beautiful anecdotes and he asked my brother, a theologian, to tell him where Mom would be at that moment. My brother began to talk about life after death and guesses as to how and where she would be.

My father listened carefully. Suddenly he asked us to take him to the cemetery.

“Dad!” we replied, “it’s 11 at night, we can’t go to the cemetery right now!”

He raised his voice, and with a glazed look he said: “Don’t argue with me, please don’t argue with the man who just lost his wife of 55 years.”

There was a moment of respectful silence, we didn’t argue anymore. We went to the cemetery. With a flashlight we reached her grave.

My father sat down, prayed, and told his children: “It was 55 years… you know? No one can really talk about true love if haven’t done life with a person.”

He paused and wiped his face.

“She and I, we were together in the good and in the bad.” he continued. “When I changed jobs, we packed up when we sold the house and moved. We shared the joy of seeing our children become parents, together we mourned the departure of loved ones, we prayed together in the waiting room of some hospitals, we supported each other in pain, we hugged one another each day, and we forgave mistakes.”

And then he paused and added, “Children, that’s all gone and I’m happy tonight. Do you know why I’m happy? Because she left before me. She didn’t have to go through the agony and pain of burying me, of being left alone after my departure. I will be the one to go through that, and I thank God for that. I love her so much that I wouldn’t have liked her to suffer…”

When my father finished speaking, my brothers and I had tears streaming down our faces. We hugged him and he comforted us, “It’s okay. We can go home. It’s been a good day.”

That night I understood what true love is. It is more than just romanticism and sex, it’s two people who stand beside one another, who are committed to one another … through all the good and bad that life throws at you.”

My car has been telling me for a few weeks that the oil is due to be changed and I have ignored it thinking I will do it tomorrow anyway today I finally got a round to getting it booked in, only to find that the MOT ran out 5th March.

I called Arnold Clarke to book both the service and MOT in to be told they are both paid for but they can not get me in at either Winsford or Northwich until mid April. If I want to go to Hanley duck they will do it on Saturday so I said yes and I now have to go to the Potteries instead of spending my weekend in me shed making a bath panel, it me own fault I guess?

We played the penultimate game of the season tonight against Turnpike X and after last weeks elation getting a rare point, drawing with third placed Warmingham, White Lion it felt like we lost a point this week because we were unlucky in all five frames we lost and anyone of them would have given us a much needed win. The draw meant we remained bottom, two points a drift so all we can do is try to win our last game against Dishers and hope either Rifleman, Turnpike X or both lose which would mean possibly not finishing bottom of the league on frame difference?

The photo below came up on my laptop background slideshow while Jamie was behind me and I said that photo always reminds me of upsetting both Reagan and Lincoln by dragging them away from that snow when all they wanted to do was play in it for a while, and I just wanted to go get something to eat.

Jamie said straightaway “They probably do not remember that they just remember the photo!” and added “Nothing pisses me off more than thinking about the thousands of hours I spent making their young lives magical and they don’t remember a thing about it…!”

Its true Jamie more than anyone has and still does strive to make their lives the best they can be everyday while I do try I support her in that goal more than I attempt do things on my own and I hope that works and they see that when they are older! That day we travelled from Middlewich with no snow up to Lyme House near Macclesfield where snow was covering the ground so we were not prepared for it, or I wasn’t is probably more truthful so I was cold and hungry after walking around the National Trust exhibition and made them get in to the car which upset and saddened both of them.

Its funny I can’t remember much about the day other than the choir and how I spoiled my family’s fun…