Kids enjoyed a lie in this morning, dreaming of a whole week chillin’ but it was work as normal for Mommy and me which was OK because without the school morning stress we both had a nice leisurely start.

My day consisted of work coupled with anticipation of the job link, possibly arriving and broken up by the funeral of my mates sister Ann Rice. I went representing Steventons Pool Team which she and her husband had a lot to do with through the years and she deserved some recognition of that, and the lads donated £100 to St Lukes in her honour.

Not having slept the best yet again I lay on the couch trying to stay awake for as long as I could but woke up alone and join Mommy in bed at 11 o’clock lol

The highlight of my Saturday was walking with Jamie and Billy around the meres near Shakerley, after dropping Reagan off at horse riding. It was a lovely morning the sun shone a bit although it was extremely muddy in places after a lot of overnight rain

Like I said a few days ago the courting I have experienced feels like I am being headhunted but until there is a job offer on the table how can I be excited how can I say whether its an opportunity or not?

It’s scarey to move jobs and until I see the alternative I just don’t know, nor can I decide if a new beginning is better than listening to the band play on the deck of the titanic as it slips below the waves, hoping….?

A big part of adult life is working to make ends meet, and we all struggle with the daily “drudge” of going to work, but having a job you like is always a huge help. I think Jamie has the ability to do anything and has a dream job with so much kudos in any conversation when she mentions ‘Harley Street’ but she’ll still find the relentlessness of earning money tough and the ease if which it is spent!

It has been well documented just how much being the Willows IT Manager was my dream job and that since 2011, I have given my all to make the Willows work and just help people. Since 2018  my job has been slowly eroded to the point, a few months ago, where it was making me feel mentally ill, and I felt there wasn’t much point to anything that was worrying me. It showed me how much my work life is important to my whole well-being and that I needed to let whatever it was that I was holding onto because it was not worth making myself ill. I was even summoned to a meeting by my boss that was definitely not “disciplinary” (?) during this time where they told me I was negative and needed to re-evaluate…

I told them I had never been negative and always tried to do the very best for the Willows, but my ‘worth’ has been undermined, and I am no longer heard? It wasn’t easy to change my mindset without letting my work ethic slip or moral belief that you should try to do your best every day, go.

In October, it was announced that five people, at Langdale House, the office where I work, were going to be made redundant, and they could all apply for three jobs. I represented Susan, one of the accounts staff that had to apply for their own job, and if unsuccessful, she would be made redundant, and I witnessed how poorly VP treated her and the other four colleagues.

Now that I have let my dream job go I am able to just do the job and not stress over not being able to manage it is OK, I just do my job. It is still interesting to see the mixed messages from my line manager and VP to the point where it just seems like a joke how they are treating me.

Today, I spent the day installing all new hardware at Lymm, and it was even more interesting quizzing the two IT guys from corporate headquarters, because it became very apparent that all the idiots who had made me feel so worthless were also viewed in the same light by these guys too!

Imagine how this makes me feel when coupled with the fact that since my line manager went off work with stress my job has become so much more important because people have to ask me for assistance, help and basically to do the job I am paid for

…but has my head already been turned?

Spent Sunday morning attaching my new shelving unit into position and I felt so pleased how it turned out. It also allowed me to stow all my fasteners screws and nails etc

The stuff next to it in the picture is part of my next project to find a way to stow those but I need to make my bench first because that will get a lot of stuff off the floor too