A normal morning for a birthday because I had to work so when I left I didn’t bother opening the cards sat on kitchen table preferring to wait until everyone was with me. Work was OK although things are really starting to change and it was wierd to hear the truth coming out about what has been going on even though I knew it was…!

When I got home I was locked out of the blooming house, what a great birthday so far, but luckily for me I’d called at Lidl on the way home and me shed doesn’t need a key so it was cider, darts and some music while I waited.

Reagan appeared first and told me I had to wait before I could go into the house which confused me a tad because that’s what I was doing before she told me? As I entered the kitchen once instructed there was cake presents and the cards from earlier. Tea was gammon egg and chips (obvs) after opening my gifts I felt very spoiled.

I love my family and wouldn’t have wanted to be anywhere else than with them on my birthday.

A ska rockumentery, a Two Tone story, my high school life in music turned out to be nothing of the sort? We sat down to watch a BBC 6 part series about the Specials and ended up watching a drama about life in 1981 and how music was a way out from addiction poverty and terrorism with a sound track from the time.

I felt anxious once invested in the characters being portrayed willing them first to survive and eventually succeed, the writing so good it had you trying and in my case failing to guess the story. It contained so many sub plots twist and turns that even after watching the sixth episode I dreamt why it ended so horrifically for one of the villains because I wasn’t able to unravel it while watching the show.

5 stars would highly recommend

My favourite thing to do is always with Jamie woke up next to her, had to go to get dog food she said she’ll come with me, she said she wanted to swap the chair in her office for the two seater in the living room we just did it. When she said she was off to the supermarket, I went with her and as a family we went to a birthday party at the Legion my family is ace, and I just love spending my life with Jamie.

As I wind down my time at The Willows I am made aware, by people I have helped over the years, how much they appreciate me and for what I have done for them. Its nice and I don’t think I realised what an impact if that is the correct word to describe I have made in 13 years?

I spent a few hours at one of the surgeries today and as I walked in I was hugged twice before I got to the bottom of the stairs and told how sad they are that I am leaving…

I filled in my exit interview form when I got home and maybe I was kinder than I might have been if I had filled it in when I hated going to work for what seemed a lifetime and I was not being heard and I had the indignity of being reprimanded for being negative. The only negative thoughts I ever had were the ones they were driving me to feel which if uncontrolled could have been catastrophic but throughout I ALWAYS did my job!

Maybe appreciation and understanding was what I needed back then, instead of three pages of A4 containing documented evidence of my perceived negativety being read to me without warning.

Those people are not the ones genuinely telling me how sad they are that I have decided to move on but they will probably stand there on my last day and tell me the rest of the staff at Langdale w hat a great employee I have been?

I begin my last full week on Monday and I intend to carry on as normal…