Crying

Came to bed crying tonight after watching Lockerbie a 5 part series about a dad that wanted to know why his daughter died and, most importantly, who killed her!

After over 20+ years many governments are still keep the truth from him and I burst into tears mainly because I can’t imagine a yone of my family being taken away from me but I am fully aware of the grief, it just broke my heart that he “wasted” all those years to know as much as he did on day one!

I wished Jamie was awake because I would have hugged her so tightly begged her never to leave me and forgive me for watching the final two episodes without her….

I love my family

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44 Not Out

She said “I’m so old” although she didn’t really mean it nor did I take much notice as we got ready to go out for a birthday feast at Hickorys Smoke House

The thing I did take notice of was as we went to sleep she said “Best Birthday Ever!”

I love this lady!

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Playoff day

Just finished watching the Broncos in their first playoff game since Superbowl 50 7th February 2016 and it began well scoring a TD on our opening drive but after that it was apparent we were not ready to take on a Bills side who are in the middle of a window that could produce a Championship.

So…

A great season ends with a disappointing loss to a good football team, no-one gave us a chance at the start of the season but we gave ourselves that chance by balling all year! 

The big take aways we lack player makers on offense but it looks like we have found our QB for the next few years, our cap space eases next year and we have all our draft picks. For the first time in a long time, we are not looking for a quarterback or head coach, so go surround Bo Nix with weapons!

I enjoyed the ride and look forward to September to do it all again #GoBroncos

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Feeling awful

Spent the night being woken up in pain because the painkillers kept wearing off and it was annoying and I think it really affected the rest of my day because I was never able to feel great. I walked with Reagan and Lincoln to church with Billy as his mornin,  and I felt light-headed thinking I hope I make it home. Its been hard to eat enough to give me energy and with a poor night’s sleep, after trying to battle through the fatigue and had to give in and go to bed, and I slept all afternoon.

[Edit]

Reagan began her first period today, and that must be pretty scary, but thankfully, her Mom was here to help and guide her through it. I’m not saying I couldn’t have done it but Reagan would not have wanted me to, so I’m sure she is more thankful than me?

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Managing pain

Spent Saturday worried that I was going to be in pain all day but it never really materialised all I did keep on top of Ibuprofen and Paracetamol  all day. We had a great day first taking Billy around Shaking the Mirror

Then the best bit taking me mum grocery shopping, which doesn’t sound thrilling, but just to spend time with her was just brilliant.

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Skull crusher

There may be a hole between your gob and your nose sign here, and we’ll rip it out…

I trudged through the snow to the dentist this morning to have a tooth ripped out of me head feeling slightly scared but knowing I couldn’t afford the alternatives. A ton eighty to feel fucking terrible and lose part of me and be told for three grand I can have it put back, we’ll see I suppose!

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Dragging me down

Before this job becomes worse than the one I left it for I need to get out and I have quickly realised that since returning after the Christmas period.

I belive the customer who continually berates me since discovering something is going on, and it might be serious, is just the tip of the iceberg there is a whole shit show coming and don’t intend to let it drag me down with it.

I am now actively looking for another job and will apply for the first one tomorrow

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Ying yang

Great win at pool 7 3 against Nadin, yet work is just shit….I just can’t fathom WTF is going on in their minds?

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Cold snap

The last few days have been cold with snow and Icy rain in equal quantities but to ight when Reagan got into the car after horseriding she was freezing. It took ages to get home because I daren’t go over 30mph

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Lincoln plays the drums

Lincoln had his first drum lesson tonight and I don’t think I have ever heard him so eager and keen to learn something other than XBOX or VR I hope he sticks at it…we’ll see?

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