Having watched the Broncos lose to the Chiefs on Primetime Thursday Night Football meaning I was up all night getting a couple hours after the game before getting the kids ready for school and starting work myself.

The thing that kept me going and motivated the kids to go to school was today Mommy comes home, even thought she actually set off yesterday. I worked until 1pm and then had 42 minutes to prepare like I was going on a first date and drive to Crewe railway station to meet Mommy. Showered shaved and perfumed, I stood at the ticket gate waiting with a funny feeling in my belly like nerves you get meeting a girl for the first time?

When Jamie appeared, I remember feeling ecstatic  clapping and then very emotional it felt so weird, feeling like a little kid on a date yet meeting the woman I have spent my life with since 2007. She noticed I was practically in tears but it just proved how happy I was to see her I think?

Once home and showered it was exhausting for both of us not to just succumb to sleep, but Reagan and Lincoln arrived home and wanted Mommy, so sleep had to wait. Staying awake in both our situations was the right thing to do mine because I missed a bit of sleep last night watching football where as Mommy had been awake for over 24 hours…!

I loved feeling ‘giddy’ today it’s a feeling you get rarely if ever, I don’t need much in life but this lady is top of every list

I sat in a vet surgery in Stoke on me own this afternoon finally able to breathe again after feeling overwhelmed with the amount work I had to do over the last couple of days. There were so many people relying on me to do what I said I could do, but the doubt I had because of my lack of local knowledge meant I struggled so much yesterday to stem the avalanche of work not just of the planned work but the normal days work ontop and not being able to provide them with the support they are used to, and it almost drowned me. One of the biggest issues I had yesterday was Reagan & Lincoln were at home alone and I should be there with them but I had given my word that I could make all this work but time ran out. Today I was dreading time running out again as I drove along the M6 not knowing what I faced or whether I could actually make it all work?

So as I found myself waiting for confirmation of the final connection Jamie messaged me from America and I sent a few pics and joked a little and it was at that moment I breathed again!

I don’t think I put work before family but that conundrum piled pressure on me and that makes me sad because my family is what it’s all for!

Work was torture today because all I had on my mind was window frames and cladding. My brain is in overdrive planning the next part of my shed it will all take money but there are things I can do with the wood I already own, it’s just work gets in the way sometimes….

Today was a really great day in many ways but mostly because the sun shone and it was warm. Took Reagan to horse riding and did Jamie’s walk while she did her lesson and on a morning like this it was almost idyllic. The walk takes you along the side of the M6 motorway which is the only thing that isn’t perfect but this morning it sounded different and I can only explain it by a motorway has a sound and today it was different.

Even the fishermen noticed it and came out of their bivvies to look and watch literally 100s of motorbikes pass, flying ‘we will remember them’ flags. Apparently, it is a thing called “Ride to the wall” bikers raising money for veterans and hats off to them it was noticeably impressive!

Reagan was keen to ride but also get home because she’d arranged a sleep over at Elouisa’s, so when we got home she disappeared to get ready for that while Lincoln and I had a bacon butty for dinner. He went off to play his new Halloween game, and I set up my circular saw in the garden and ripped down all the beading I had started creating last weekend, and I LOVED it. It is what I love to do to create stuff and feel proud when I get it right, I even love it when it doesn’t go quite right but that bit is still a journey….

Me and Lincoln had hotdogs for tea and I added a tin of chilli for chilli-dogs which was a huge success although Lincoln was not interested. We played gin rummy while we ate them and finished the night off watching Ghostbusters Afterlife interupted briefly by Mommy getting ready to go to Ian and Jim’s wedding, the reason she is in America right now.

All in all I have enjoyed today…

Tonight I cooked chicken Kebabs in pitta bread with salad and chips with a plain chicken option for Reagan. Ironically the spiced option was a huge success and both children loved it and want me to make them again soon