I can’t really explain how anxious I get when the time comes each year that they decorate the house for Christmas, it should be excitement or joy to see the Reagan and Lincoln feeling the same. Jamie knows I don’t like change and this always feels like change that needs to be resisted at least until December but as long as possible, preferably!

I tried to help today because it was happening whether I wanted it or not, hanging the lights outside as it started to snow, building a fire after trimming the tree, sorting the electrics for the myriad of lights we have accumulated over the years but eventually as their tempers frayed I disappeared first with Billy before it got dark and then just in the kitchen to cook our tea.

It’s done now and I will quickly get used to it, now it’s just yhe fact that it’s snowing and how that will hamper my plans for the next couple of days I must deal with….

Managed to get me car started this morning to allow me to drive it down to Town Bridge Motors to find out why it struggles to start. Apparently, the thermostat had siezed in the “I’m really hot” position, which in turn broke two sensors on the radiator and coolant reservoir, meaning I get a bill for £250…

I paid Lesley the other half of the grand today too so my wallet took one he’ll of a beating but hopefully my car is now reliable again and I definitely now own all the tools in my shed!

It’s only money and worrying about it makes no sense it’s what being an adult is all about paying the bills

Normally we would decompress together at the end of a day like this but Jamie is at her company Christmas party in London enjoying the fruits of her labour I am looking forward to the weekend of pottering the perfect remedy if one were needed!

Wawaawawa, there’s nothing I can do about it, so why worry about it!

Being a Forster is great, but “The Forsters” make it worth getting out of bed every morning

What would it be like to get out of bed every day to do something I want to do, better still something I enjoy doing…?

I’d become happier and more contented about my work situation because I got it right in my head, that nothing is going to change this is how it is just take the money until they stop giving it to me. Annoyingly last Thursday my frustration and dare I say it anger came flooding back when the circus came back to town causing mayhem not just for me but apparently the whole business (the only thing that made me smile was the fact that it had affected everyone in a negative way) A script was run to remove all admim accounts from all computers and install a differently named admin account without telling me. Head explodes…

The upshot was I treated it as a hacker attack and did everything I could to contain it not knowing it was the central IT team that had caused it. The thing that really hurt was the email I received from the Head of IT, ultimately my boss, reprimanding me for the way I dealt with what I believed to be “a major incident” without discussing it with the central team!

NON OF THIS WOULD HAVE HAPPENED IF THE CENTRAL TEAM HAD DISCUSSED IT WITH ME!!!

I vented my frustrations in a management meeting and then to my line manager who said he would feedback to the Head of IT. Quite honestly I couldn’t care less what he does my main concern is my mental health and trying not to let the fact that the clowns are now running the circus and to expect that this is what happens from now on.

Just take the money and keep smiling through gritted teeth!

Cars are a necessary evil sometimes when you can’t just get in it and drive to where you want to go. Yet again there is something wrong with me car, over the last couple of days when I try to start it from cold it really struggles to start firing on all cylinders  literally. Once I get it going, it is OK although a little lumpy(?) but seems to be racing a little too

I’m no expert, but that sounds expensive….?

Tried not to mention work in tonights blog, but it affects me so much to think my job is so unnecessary and such an annoyance to everyone in authority who can’t wait to eradicate me…!

There is no Alan in Ians team!

There is no moral in Langdale

There is no point in worrying about it

Just take the wage

Jamie will admit that her sight is really bad yet she can see so much more than anyone else. She sees big things about me that I can’t quote see yet?

Tonight before both children went off to laser tag with church Reagan sat Mommy and me down to watch her PowerPoint presentation of this year’s Christmas list… It was beautifully presented with lots of options including main gifts highlighted with a snowflake highlighting gifts she really would like!

OK I get it the magic of Christmas is officially over which makes me sad but a “PowerPoint presentation” she’s DEFINITELY her Mommy’s girl [Rolls Eyes]

We had another very successful Thanksgiving feeding 10 at dinner with Mommy’s special made with love holiday fare, Turkey and all the trimmings follow by pumpkin pie. This year featured a special addition to dessert menu Reagan’s very own cherry pie which she was very proud of and tasted as good as it looked too!

After enjoying the afternoon with Dad Liz and my mum they chose not to join us for a walk into town for the Christmas light switch on preferring to go home to their warm houses instead of enduring freezing temperatures for a very underwhelming festive spectacle….good choice, mum and dad!

Auntie Karen did make the effort even though she had chosen not to risk being in so much company indoors in case she was exposed any bugs Lincoln (or anyone really) brought into the house from Menai. We very much understood but it was also really nice to see her if only for a brief time.

After the lights were switched on, we had a house party with a few people planned and I think it went really well with a good mix of adults and children so everyone enjoyed themselves and it was a great way to end a really great day!

The best thing I heard today was “Thank you for seeing who I was before anyone else”

It was Jamie saying she loved me, but I’d never heard her say it like that, and my first reaction was, as always, to make a joke. The words though struck with me all day and I eventually apologised (unnecessarily) because I love the fact that together we have come so far from such a chance meeting and immediately hitting it off.

I love you too dude!

Strangest Thanksgiving ever well for me, definitely having only celebrated 15 this one is the only one we have ever had Chippy tea?

Went to the lake once Reagan had left for school, Jamie swam Billy and me watched. Then spent the rest of the day cleaning house.

Tomorrow is a holiday for me and Jamie has the afternoon off to start cooking ready for Saturday….oh and Lincoln comes home