Too much to live for

I heard someone say that on a show we are currently watching called “I shouldn’t be alive” where people recount near-death experiences and it is such easy watching and a great laugh taking the piss out the stupidity of some people before we go to sleep.

When you realise that being happy is the most important thing in life and then all you have to do is sort out what it is that makes you happy. I am sat here watching Mortimer and Whitehouse: Gone fishing which is such a great show that just makes me smile.

My family just walked in from the gym, Mommy and Lincoln Boxercise, Reagan crosstrainer but all smiling as they walked through and it was just a moment that made me smile and I am privileged to have loads of those moments but sometimes I don’t appreciate them.

We are all guilty of taking for granted the moments will always happen and think the big ones matter but moments are happening all the time

I have a great life right now full of moments and I try not to strive for more than I have, and hope I can enjoy it for many many more years.

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Stay positive

Reading back the last few posts I am very negative and I think it’s because this chest infection is getting me down a bit, and my lack of patience at work this morning was down to the same thing. To be asked to fix something that I do not have the administrative rights to fix is annoying at the best of times but when three jobs came in one after another earlier was almost too much. Some people understand that the resolution is out of my hands while others just talk at me not listening to the fact that they are going to ha e to call someone else themselves.

I tried to stay positive throughout and eventually all three jobs just went away and calls about them stopped until late afternoon when I got a call saying it just started working but has stopped again and my first question was have they done what I asked them to do the last time we spoke…?

No was the reply so over 5 hours had passed and I was still telling them I can’t help and they still hadn’t listened to what I’d told them!

The best thing that happened today was that I dreamt the solution to how to put a door on the gas meter box I am making which is to process some of the offcuts from the shed framing using my new table saw and make a miniature version of my shed door. Without the new saw, I would not be able to use the offcuts and would have to go and buy new wood so now I can’t wait to get going on it at the weekend.

Frustrated tired and struggling to breathe I am just glad the day is over and Cold and Flu medicine makes me feel well enough to enjoy the evening with Jamie.

Joy of joys I have a meeting all day to look forward to note to self must stay positive!

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It’s oh so quiet

It seems weekends are not good for my health just lately, last Sunday I felt poorly and today I again felt bad suffering from this nagging cold that just will not do one. I spent the morning in my shed making a new box to cover the gas meter and got cold I don’t think did my chest any favours so I called it quits and went indoors because I was struggling to breathe.

When I started getting dinner on I was really struggling but taking my time I was getting it done then the family came home and their energy was just overwhelming. By the time Mommy and Reagan left for the supermarket leaving Lincoln with me to do his homework and chatter at me, I was so overstimulated I had to just calm down for a few minutes and just concentrate on breathing.

It got better quickly and I made dinner didn’t do a lot else and had some quiet time when the kids went off to youth church for a couple hours but this chest infection isn’t going anywhere yet, it’s annoying because this has to be the third time I have suffered from it in the last few weeks?

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Is -5 too cold

The snow was disappearing late afternoon yesterday but when the sun disappeared and it started getting cold it just turned to ice. This morning it was -5 when we got up but by the time Billy and I went for a walk the sun had come out it was still cold but Billy does not care a jot, so I got some layers on and we went for our walk.

Billy loved the walk as always and chased the ball while my nose was turning blue and my finger even in gloves got really cold but in the sun it was such a lovely morning and perfect walking weather.

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Snowww excited

Reagan and Lincoln got home from school and asked if they could go outside and play in the snow, which I immediately agreed to, because for them to want to go outside is rare especially when not being made to. Although I was still working I watched them for a while, playing in the street collecting snow making snowballs and I realised I had actually forgotten how exciting snow is to a child.

When they came in I showed them a photo of me & Mommy up in the mountains on my first trip to America, which was at the end of March 2008 the same time of year as we are going this year. In the photo, the snow is knee deep which it could very easily be again when we are there and we have to at least go and look for it when we are there. The other thing Reagan noticed was the weather looked warm which again could be too and it could also be cold which I think blew her mi d that there could be snow and sun at the same time.

They want to experience this!
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Play well & lose

Without practice playing pool is hard, we get no table time on a Wednesday so generally the only frame I play is in the match, so I have to accept that against players who are playing many frames per week probably every night I am going to struggle. That said playing on instinct serves me pretty well having played the game since the early 80s I k ow how to win its just my touch that let’s me down. When it does I accept that I may have made the shot with practice or even won the game but the killer blow comes when I play well and lose.

Tonight I thought I played really well even though I lost and at the death missed a pot to win my frame which was frustrating because I fought so well to get that chance o ly to blow it. I was really disappointed and annoyed two feelings I don’t tend to get much anymore.

We lost the match but were in all but two of the frames eventually losing 3 – 5 to Dishers who are 4th in the league so no shame really…

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It’s your Birthday ffs!

Jamie turned 42 years old today and no-one deserves to feel special more than the woman we call Mommy! She works so hard at everything she does and very rarely has any down time so tonight we went to the Cheshire Grill at Lach Denis on me whatever you want which is always a risk with both children some what “picky” shall we say and my concerns were founded with both children not liking their starters and struggled with their mains too. Mommy and me enjoyed the meal but by the end of the main coarse we were ready for home not wanting to risk Reagan causing a scene so we left.

It was snowing quite heavily on the way home and because we missed out on pudding I decided to stop at Mozzas and get a cupcake so at least we could stick a candle in it and sing happy birthday! While I was in there Reagan and Lincoln got out and play in the snow.

Like I said Jamie works hard at everything she does and since last year she has been doing Slimming World and has got it under control right now so didn’t want to ruin all the hard work just for one day so chose surloin steak with vegetables, not fries and only had one drink so when we got home I gave her a glass of Prosecco and sang Happy birthday I offered to eat the cake for her but “It’s your birthday ffs!”

I love this photo so much!
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Diplomacy

When I go to work I am there to do my job but sometimes you come across people who forget why they rang in the first place, and proceed to tell me that they’ve already tried what I am asking them to and it didn’t work. They then stop listening becoming fixated on something they have not tried and are certain this is what I need to be telling them to try!

Today was one of those days where I just had to say “Please just listen and do as I say!” and low and behold the issue was resolved at which point you would think that would be it and maybe a thank you was about to be delivered but no, the fixation on a piece of equipment we had not touched was questioned again?

“Don’t we have to plug a wire back into this, because it had a wire in before!”

“Err, no, your issue is resolved”

“but this is not plugged in and it was before!”

“Have I resolved the issue you rang about?”

“Yes”

“Is everything else working?”

“Yes”

“Then that’s it, move on, and call me if you have any further problems”

I hung the phone up and as I did so realised I was absolutely seething and wound up, and it all came out as a FOR FUCK SAKE WHAT IS IT WITH SOME PEOPLE JEEZ, I WOULDN’T DREAM OF TELLING SOMEONE HOW TO DO THEIR JOB?

….and relax breathe in the good air and out with bad!

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Man down

Not sure what happened this afternoon but in the supermarket I just had nothing left no energy light headed I just felt spent? I have a propensity for missing breakfast sometimes if I drink a cup of coffee before I eat, it makes me feel OK and fills me so I don’t feel like I need anything else and this morning when I took Billy for a walk I thought I was OK.

When I got back I felt hungry so I ate a bowl of cereal before we left the house to do the weekly shop at Tesco in Northwich but I think I’d possibly not taken enough on board soon enough. When we got there I didn’t feel right but by the time I got home all I could do was sleep and I did for 3 hours…

A bacon butty and now chicken and chips and Miami v Buffalo and I am just about feeling right again?

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…not just for Christmas!

He never asked to become part of our family, he was just a happy newborn with his brothers and sisters hanging out with his Mom and Dad. When we chose him and brought him here to live with us we committed to making the rest of his life the best it could be and in return he will enrich ours.

He expects to be fed he expects to be watered and loves his comfy cushion and feels safe under the stairs he never asks for much, he may give you cute eyes while you eat he may hoover up any scraps of food that fall to the floor and will accept any titbits given to him.

He deserves is to be walked twice a day and although sometimes when it’s dark cold and wet and I might not want to go its these moments I remember my commitment

The thing he will ask for is a BALL preferably thrown so he can chase it preferably hard fast and into woods but he just loves to chase a ball and he will bring it back all day if you are prepared to take part in the game.

He is never happier than when anyone will play the ‘chuck me the ball’ and I try to play as much as I can…

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