Jamie worked till 8 tonight but still found time to cook herself and the kids some tea leaving me lots of time once I’d finished work and taken Billy, so I had an hour in me shed playing darts.
A great way to unwind and forget about the 2 hour meeting I had to finish my day, although I am pleased to report that under a barrage of waffle I rose above being side stepped and ignored even using some not so subtle sarcasm to make it through the clown show. I even had time earlier to put them in their place over incompetence and ignorance in an email reply.
Can’t wait to disappear for two and a half weeks at a really critical stage of converting my company to a new piece of software and literally forgetting about it and enjoying our vacation
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Tonight, I tried to explain what time it will be at each stage of our journey, and it got confusing, so I I had to write it down. Basically we leave Manchester at 14:30GMT and arrive in Denver 06:04GMT but we have booked a hotel next to the airport so hopefully we can stay awake until then and sleep for a few hours but that’s a tough ask.
MAN to NY GMT 2:30 to 10:15 NY arrive 5:15
NY to DEN GMT 01:10 to 6:04 DEN arrive 11:04
Plan is to hopefully, possibly eat in New York and then stay awake on the NY DeN flight but that’s an over nighter in our heads so that’s a tough one.
It was really good to get away walking in the Lakes yesterday and enjoyed a night out last night too but this morning I was already looking forward to getting home again.
I don’t think it’s a bad thing that if either me or Jamie go away alone, we always crave to come back to “normality” which for me is my family its what makes me happy. Being away makes me realise what I have and that I have such a great life so why would I want to be away from that for any longer than necessary?
Now, back to normality today was pegging washing out, going to the store for groceries, cooking a Sunday roast and washing up afterwards then taking the dog for a walk but I loved it. We chatted about the American adventure and it was brilliant to see both children’s growing excitement and how they are planning their trips in their heads things like what to pack or what they’ll need for the plane journeys its just cute to see.
Jamie is now getting small details sorted like plug adapters and what tech to take, it just all getting very real now with 10 days to go. I have setup a Google Drive folder that syncs to Plex and shared it with Nannie so we can upload photos during our trip and she can keep up with what we’re doing which will be really good for her to see.
Hate to keep harping on about my job, but it can be all consuming at times it’s great if that consuming is good, but as I’ve written recently, it’s like I don’t exist in meetings. I had 2 today and in the first, which they asked me to attend because they needed my input and knowledge, yet my only contribution was to recommend which server they connect to. Once they knew that they did not require me and I just sat there as they led themselves to do what they needed to, and I left?
In the second meeting the subject was data collection and the movement of that data and there was a problem that could not be resolved so they named all the people who were needed, to come up with a resolution and the rest could leave….I was one of those to leave the meeting?
I was telling Jamie what had happened at lunch time and while I was talking she turned her favourite TV show on and it made feel exactly how the same as the meetings were making me feel, like there has to be something better than listening to Alan Forster
I’d forgotten my new mantra of “FUCK ‘EM” I had let it get under my skin again and it just shouldn’t have done I shouldn’t have let them make me feel like that again but….
Two weeks from now, we will be in Colorado with Jamie’s family, she is noticeably getting excited. Everything she is planning, she tells the children they immediately become as excited as her, I think this will be the trip of a lifetime for all of them for different reasons.
I will be the foreigner on this trip so, like always, it will be them and me but that’s OK I am getting excited too….
The teachers went out on strike again today and will be on strike again tomorrow, too, and this is the third and fourth day of industrial action this year. Reagans school is closed, but Lincoln’s school has said year six need to attend because it is an important year for them as they prepare to move up to Middlewich High School in the summer. We sent him for the first two days, but he told us that because his teachers were not there, they were just told to read or they went over stuff that they had already done numerous times.
Although it goes against everything I believe in I said that if they strike again, Mommy and me will not make you go in so today both children stayed home from school and will again tomorrow due to the teachers strike action.
Two weeks today we get on a plane to America for our holidays and that means both Reagan and Lincoln will miss 3 more days of school but part of me thinks it doesn’t matter because the teachers have already decided fighting for better pay is better than teaching my children four days this term so they can not object to 3 more days or even worse fine us for the absence? I am not sure I could hold my tongue if they did….
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Life is made up of moments. Some you wish could last forever, and others you wish had never even happened and can’t end soon enough. All these moments make up your life and mean that nothing is forever. You need to enjoy the good moments and hope they last and realise that the bad one’s will end!
To be happy is everything. To achieve as many good moments, one after another is what I believe life is all about. To be able to appreciate each of those moments as they happen and just be in each one completely is as good as it gets.
Happiness is the meaning of life, realising that its the little things in life are where happiness lays and concentrating on them will bring more joy than anything else!
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Reagan went back to school today after spending the weekend convalescing and as her Mom waved her off I just saw that glimmer of empowerment she has and just thought, she won’t spend the whole day at school, they’ll phone to say she needs to be picked up.
Lincoln just gets on with life wearing the smile he has on most of the time not allowing anything to phase him. School is just one of those things he accepts and attends every day, although this week we are not going to make him go in during Wednesday and Thursday’s strike action by teachers so he will get a couple of days off.
Mommy is working hard to make extra money for our holiday which will be here in no time, well, 16 days to be precise! She is already worrying about switching off and enjoying a break wondering if she should take her laptop in case of an emergency at work. I may allow it but I will never encourage it, she needs a break and she deserves to spend two weeks with her family and friends in Denver without having to think about work!
Me, I tried to stay dead calm all day sorting out the usual work crises hacked email accounts and such like before attending Irene Morrison’s funeral. I never reacted upon my return to find as expected Reagan was already home after being collected by Mommy at the school’s request, nor did I rise to any of the incompetent drivel at either of this afternoon’s meetings even managing to talk and get a point across, although who knows if they listened? All in all for me a good day ending with Jamie and a glass of red wine finished it off perfectly!
There was a time not so long ago when I would work at weekends because that is the five-star service I liked to supply but recently as you’ll know if you have read my blog this year that work has changed and is going to change dramatically over the next few months. I have been the IT for the company since 2011 and with that I have been available 24/7 because no matter what was wrong, not only could I fix it, I would be able to make sure it didn’t happen again by planning what needs to be done to avoid it etc. I have been in control of everything IT so the company I work for just needs to know one number, mine, if there was a problem, once I knew about it, they could forget it.
Corporatisation has been gradually affecting this, but recently due to the need to change computer systems it has affected my position a lot more where most of the planning for the future is being done by the corporate head office IT department who find it very difficult to involve me because they have not had to deal with any other take over that has their own IT department, which has allowed them to do what they want without intervention. That could be done with our company but there would be ramifications if they did so annoyingly they need me, for now to guide them through avoiding these.
Beyond autumn 2023 when in their eyes the new computer system is installed everywhere my roll becomes murky and they can not tell me what it will look like so avoid answering my questions about it.
Right now it is so difficult for me not to have control of everything and especially not to be able to fix everything or plan as before to avoid reoccurrences. It annoys me to be in a meeting and be asked a question and for it to be answered by someone else or to be so disarmed in a meeting to be interrupted by being told what I am talking about has been sorted out in a previous meeting I was not part of… these things are now such regular things now it was starting to affect both my physical and mental health.
I am now making the effort to let go of the control or certainly the feeling of losing that control because it’s going to happen whether I allow it or not. The hardest part of letting go for me is not looking like it affects me, like I am throwing my toys out of the pram when they do something that I know is wrong, a backward step if you will?
At the end of the day if I had a heart attack because I care so much they would not help me they would step over me and probably think I was still in their way…?
This week I will mostly be avoiding stress at work and trying to be like Billy who doesn’t stress about anything…except people knocking at our door…oh and the odd male dog that barks at him but apart from that….