It feels so good to be out with me, mates. I really am enjoying the time not thinking about anything else just being me, without a care. I played well as we all struggle to learn the new rules but even that was fun, it was just a good night in the Legion, our new home venue.
We went to a parent information at the High School in preparation for Lincoln going there in September we were there 20 minutes and were introduced to the new head teacher who said a few words and then we were told there is a information pack on your way out, good night?
Back home within half an hour to get on with rest of our evening, sorted!
Today, I went to watch Reagan’s riding lesson because I saw a “Tiktok” about making memories and how a parent being present means more to a child than 100s of pounds worth of things.
I think both children hold possessions and things in such high regard, but that feeling is so fleeting that possession then becomes clutter because they have moved on.
Reagan did not react like I imagined she would when she saw me, but I would put that down to my expectations and the fact it was a lesson and she was concentrating. She was doing really well, and it was great to watch her, although it made me proud, my proudest moment was watching her so confident on an unfamiliar horse in Wyoming.
Lincoln came to talk to me tonight nearly in tears because he had seen something on YouTube that allows you to connect a phone to an Oculus allowing you to load unauthorised games but it didn’t just work which he was expecting me to drop everything and just make it work? I spend all day working out why tech is not working and the last thing I want to do is work out why a perfectly good Oculus won’t load illegal games when he has a laptop that has so much food in the keyboard it won’t work, and break that!
When I sit there and watch him play cricket and he constantly looks over to me for a thumbs up for reassurance that I am there I am proud of what he is doing and he will remember that forever, but will have moved on from what upset him tonight and won’t remember it tomorrow let alone forever!
I love them both and want them to have nice stuff and if I can facilitate that moment of elation when you get a new thing because we all like new shit but I have to try and be more present than I have to kill myself to earn money to waste on things that will be clutter tomorrow!
Jamie has waited her whole life to be a Mom and I have watched her become one, the easy bit although my participation was brief and then 9 months later I was just a bystander there just to encourage and hold a hand.
The hard bit is actually being a Mom and she has not only become one she has become a great one to both Reagan and Lincoln and makes it look so easy, she always knows what to do. She thinks about them and their needs before her own, something I think comes so naturally to her she doesn’t have to do anything but be herself.
For me, although I love being a Daddy to both of , does not come naturally to me at all. I have to try very hard to do the right thing but I know if I keep Mommy happy and healthy that is the best thing I do because it means everyone is happy. I wish being their Dad came as naturally to me as being a Mom does to Jamie…
Jamie was right as always when she said that a printer at work that is broken would play on my mind all weekend because the IT working is what motivates me and gives me purpose in life. I hate that being right but it makes me so frustrated when given the tools I could fix anything and everyone would love me, but in front of me all I see is chasing various parties until one of them admits responsibility and actually fixes something!
It is taking every ounce of restraint I have, not to look and see if it is still broken but I am adamant to let it stew until Monday and then point out that yes it is offline, but:
It’s on your network, so yes, you can just “hop on and look at a print server and see its offline”
We can’t see it nor can Bomfords so our troubleshooting is done over the phone hoping the end user is telling us everything just like it was pre broadband when I started my IT career?
So who’s printer is it? Bomfords sold it to us but they have no way of communicating with it so they can not support it nor can they see if it is running out of toner so that will happen and when does, it will be offline again when they have to supply a toner without warning.
It’s on “the VP network” which is looked after by VP and their 3rd party supplier Digital Space and not accessible by myself and Rob.
MWI can only test printing from their software and if that looks OK but no print appears that’s the limit of their responsibility and after that it’s someone else’s problem, it comes back to Rob and me and…
It’s still broke, hahahaha
It is on my mind that, it’s not MWIs problem and VP IT support do not have any idea who we are, plus at 16:50 they can say “everyone has left for the weekend” and basically we are not getting a response until Monday?
I could not do this shit show sober…
Took Billy worked, went to cricket,took Billy, ate a kebab went bed! What no darts?
It didn’t come as a shock that every teacher I spoke to during today’s parent teacher zoom calls that Reagan was doing really well at school. Not one of them said a bad word about her and all said she was really studious and doing everything asked of her. It all makes me feel really proud of her but also reminds me of her Mom and how academic she is without really trying. I think Reagan takes after her and will probably do really well at school hopefully without needing to put too much effort in, and knowing that if she needs to she could be anything she wants to be with effort?
It’s well documented that my job is likely to become something very different with the introduction of new owners and a practice management system and the latter has started at one of the surgeries. Today we had a meeting called support on boarding and as I suspected we were told that support for the new PMS will be handled by the PMS company and that to get support is by way of a support ticket system. I was asked what happens currently if someone rings with an issue? My answer was We fix it…most of the time it takes longer to log the call than it is to fix it! This created a silence in meeting, which ended with the PMS company offering a training session on logging tickets…
How exciting to think I get to spend an hour of my precious life being taught how to log a ticket! Then spend every day telling the people who have the actual problem “Yes, I logged the ticket what else do you want me to?”
I’m glad I started drinking again…
With Jamie in London Reagan Lincoln and me navigated life on our own, it’s ne er easy and always makes me realise just how much she does for us all!
We always miss her but know she is living her best life and always for us not just herself…
I spent the day more or less doing what I wanted to do, which to most men would be the best day ever, and for me yeh I’ll take a day like that, but today was a Bank Holiday. We don’t get many days to spend together and yesterday was so good I hoped today was going to be the same, it wasn’t!
Designing storage for all my tools on AutoCad was how I would love to waste any day followed by throwing darts with a couple of beççers