I spent tonight talking to David Crane someone I hold as a freind in the highest regard and loved listening to what he had to say and glad he is living his best life now he is retired because his health is a concern and you only get one life.

Worked hard all day today to get the next lot of surgeries ready for a new computer system and still managed to make it home to spend a little bit of time with Jamie who had been ill in bed all day with the same symptoms the kids had earlier this week, touch wood I am OK for now?

I took Billy for a walk and told Lincoln to get something to eat and then get ready to go play cricket against NorthwichCC U11s so after a brief walk it was off to SandbachCC to watch him play. I managed to obviously rest for the duration of the game but as soon as it finished I needed to get home drop him off so that I could go play pool.

I arrived at Rifleman in Winsford to see Mike Coe make the score 2 3 to Steventons and wins from myself and PJ made it 3 5 before 2 quickfire wins in the doubles made the final score 3 7 and a semi final slot a possibility when a couple of weeks ago it looked remote.

I am laid in bed now having cleaned the kitchen and had a shower finally able to relax and hopefully get a good night’s sleep?

Watched Elvis tonight, a 2023 film that told the story of Colonel Parker really but showed the brutality of his life and how the Colonel worked him into an early grave

We all went to Delemere last evening with friends from church to the Wild Shore water adventure park and although it was cold Mommy and the kids had a great time while me and Billy watched.

Whether related it was 10am when MHS called to say Reagan had a fever and needs to be picked up from school and before 11am and both were at home in bed Lincoln in arobe in bed and shivering. Mommy gave them paracetamol and within an hour or so both were feeling a lot better it was amazing and although both are still ill they recovered more throughout the day and hopefully after a good night’s sleep they’ll be fine.

Id rather be 2 nil down than do what Alex Carey and the Australians did to Johnny Bairstow!

It’s all I want?

I think if I went to counselling, rejection would be my cryptonite it would all boil down to that? When people need me I feel great but if they don’t need me the feeling of rejection crushes me.

My dad didn’t need me to be happy, he might want me now to make him feel happy and content but he chose someone else over me?

I would like people to want to be with me not because they have to be but just because they want to be

As Lincoln’s MPS journey comes to and there are many lasts for him and for Mommy and Me I think all three of us feel somewhat melancholy about all the happy times we have had from taking Reagan for her first day to eventually meeting Lincoln on the school yard on his last day in a couple of weeks.

Tonight was the Summer Fair and Lincoln had two recitals planned so a few minutes before the first Mommy and me took our seats in the second row in readiness. The first was ukulele and there was a lot of the year sixes showing how popular it has been and they were really good playing along to a few popular songs building to a very involved finale. A huge round of applause and Lincoln exited stage left with a big smile on his face along with the rest of his ukuleliests.

Next was his favourite instrument, the saxophone which he was really looking forward to showing us, and he was brimming with confidence after the earlier efforts. He started well but halfway through his neck strap clip came off so he had to hold the instrument up and play it. During the gap between songs he managed to get it clipped back on and carried on playing but halfway way through the clip gave way again this time though the sax hit the floor with a bang. When Linc picked it up and attempted to play on it made no sound and he did not know what to do, and no matter what he tried he never got another sound out of it and as he realised it he started to get upset and it was heartbreaking to watch and so disappointing for him. We encouraged him to just pretend and get through it but you could tell he just wanted to show us he could play but he couldn’t.

I only gave him one piece of advice and he ignored it “Make sure you practice safe sax”

As Lincoln comes to the end of his Middlewich Primary School journey we went to watch him at the sports day. Watching him perform was a joy but watching him interact with his friends and team mates as a well rounded human being who is thoughtful, fun loving happy in his own skin yet still a child at heart filled me with joy!

We gave Turnpike a lesson tonight thrashing them 9 1 it was a superb performance from all involved, Steventons needed that to boost confidence and moral.

Who was the only loser I hear you ask? It does not matter all that matters is the team result, and naming names does not benefit anyone….

This is not what I signed up for…?