I had to go to Mold today for work to pick up a computer that was very slow and it meant I could just sit in my car and drive without a care for a few hours and get paid for it. As I sat waiting for the lady to finish working we chatted idoly and Helen said “you do know I lost my husband in April?”
I didn’t but was able to talk with knowledge and experience I was also able to listen with same empathy and I think t helped her a little…?
Unfortunately, I know!
After a great weekend it was good to get back to normal even if that meant work, the best thing for me was my leg was getting better. Today once I got moving it was fine and it was only painful if I touched it.
I didn’t really feel it yesterday walking around the zoo but did once we sat down to eat at the pub, so I knew it was on the mend
After work I went sit in my shed and contemplate how to hang the sliding hinges I purchased that arrived yesterday a chance to unwind and think
Ww went to meet Patty Ian Katherine and Yogi at Subway halfway to Chester on the way to the Zoo so we could get lunch and save paying zoo prices. On the way we went through some torrential rain, which was certainly not forecast, but Mommy was adamant the sun would come out and we would have a great day.
Subway
Ww always lament about our friends being so far away each time we get to spend time with them because we always have so much fun but also beyond that they are so easy to be with. We have so much in common our experiences, certainly the girls are a bond as well as all four of us being so similar in age and experience.
A group of eight people at the zoo can be difficult with so many different wants and needs throughout a whole day but I think we all had a really great day. It was an ideal way to be together and socialise with everyone as we meandered around the many exhibits. You can never guarantee seeing everything in a day because Chester Zoo is so big nor can you guarantee that the exhibits will “perform” when you are looking but for me the last port of call made the whole day.
As we got to the Lions enclosure they were laying down relaxing but as we watched one of the females wandered over to the other just to annoy her and a little tussle ensued. The male on hearing this let out an almighty roar as if to say “oh ffs it’s Sunday can we not just have a chill day?” and wandered over to sort it out before wandering back to where ever he came from.
Reagan was desperate to get her face painted and as we got close to the exit there was a booth and barring myself and Yogi everyone partook. As I waited on a bench a young lad about 12 years old walked up next to me and proceeded to undo his flies and take out his penis as though he was going to urinate. As I realised what was happening, I jumped up and ran a few steps away saying “Woah mate what you doing?” as his dad saw what was going on and corralled him and gently reprimanded him. I think the lad was probably a bit limp under the cap and not his fault but a tad shocking for me in such a busy place, it was also a funny talking point for the rest of the day as I tried to make light of a potentially awkward situation.
Goodbyes are always difficult but we decided on a long one at the Coachman in Hartford so everyone could have a meal and a drink and end the day together which was perfect. As we hugged there were no tears from anyone knowing we’d had a great and planned the time.
Although this was Mommy’s friends I have got to know Simon over the last couple of weeks through both his “stag do’s” and I knew Caz from my visits to church where I am always made to feel welcomed, so I was looking forward to getting dressed up and spending the afternoon celebrating their wedding.
The ceremony was lovely (we won’t mention the lengthy waffle extending it past an hour) and the food was great as was the company on the table we sat at, again socialising with Mike another stag do buddy I get on with really well.
A dry wedding in Britain is a rarity but this one was enjoyable and over quite quickly testament to the dryness I fear?
I got bit on the right calf doing the garden on Wednesday night and thought nothing of it but yesterday and today it has been so painful. Its like my calf is about to burst and more concerning is the pain and numbness has been spreading through the right-side of my body all night the more I walk on into the point now where even my teeth hurt? My arm hurts too we will reassess in the morning but at least it’s taken my mind off my left foot that hurts all the time since climbing those ladders last week.
Today was a bad day at work because they asked my opinion I gave them it and then they had a meeting (I was not invited) and completely disregarded my idea which would have cost them nothing. Preferring to buy lots and lots of new stuff and replace the stuff that is working with their stuff and I let that get to me which I had done so well to ignore all that shit but let me guard down and it pissed me off!
Patty & Ian
Our good friends Patty and Ian came to visit tonight and we went into town for drinks and a meal at Il Padrino which is always great food and it was just nice to spend some time together. One comment was, “It’s like we haven’t been apart, we pick up as we left off” and that rings true every time we are together.
So that turned a bad day into a really great day!
20 minutes of gardening every day is not hard work you barely notice it but the garden always looks immaculate, it is easy to do when the suns out because you want to be outside and pottering but when it rains, constantley, you think I’ll do extra tomorrow but that never happens. Tonight I got home from work and set about the hedges and lawns and spent two and a half hours working hard to get them all cut strimmed and tidied and by the end it looked great!
All day I wanted to know what train Mommy would be on so I could plan and look forward but it wasn’t until late afternoon that I got my first text of the day saying 18:28 so that meant finish work at 5 take Billy then not really a great deal of time before having to leave for the station.
A trip to Mozzas on the way home was not what Mommy wanted but we needed to eat as the kids were waiting at home for Mommy and food not necessarily in that order. So after a pizza and quiche tea everyone retreated to their own places leaving me to watch a Dickie Bird documentary in the kitchen…
Jamie loves being away but loves being home more and being Mommy to Reagan and Lincoln the thing she was put on this earth to do!
I’m glad she’s back too.
So today I had to go into work to sort out a few things at Hartford which meant leaving Reagan and Lincoln on their own at home, something that are getting used to and we can trust them to do all we ask just now is “no cooking” while we are out.
Today as I left for work I told both of them I would be a couple of hours, it’s nearly dinnertime, just no cooking while I’m gone!” and I left.
Upon my return I was greeted by Reagan proudly announcing that she’d baked cookies as a surprise for Mommy when she gets home…
I was like “REALLY?” I only gave you one instruction before I left “No cooking” an you couldn’t even adhere to that! You could have done practically anything else and you could have said “you didn’t tell us we couldn’t do it!” but no you do a Fuck you! and cook?
In 2007, I needed something, something to give me purpose, something I could focus on and I didn’t know what it was but I was searching for it. It is well known that Jamie was what I was looking for, but back then, I had no idea she was what would make me whole again?
She came into my life and I had purpose again and that purpose has burned fiercely ever since and she remains along with Reagan and Lincoln my reason for living. I always think if Mommy is happy then we are all happy, so I work hard to make sure she is!
I just “Face timed” her in a hotel room in Cardiff, which does not sound that grand, but this hotel has a spa and pool which is Jamie’s eutopia it’s where she feels happy and I love that. She looked so happy and stunningly beautiful and living her best life, something she has worked hard for it.
As I watched her squeel with excitement as she ordered room service and took off the swimsuit she had worn to swim in the hotel pool while telling me that the hotel gave her a robe and slippers as she left the cold shower post sauna, I felt the excitement and I know it sounds silly but the unbridled lust like I felt before we met.
Something you want and can’t have is as frustrating as it is exciting and visa versa. I love the bones of Jamie Rae Forster and will always work hard to make sure she is happy and hopefully she’ll never leave me!