2022
It’s the little things that can make the biggest difference Jamie told me that Reagan had noticed things not getting done and realised that I do quite a lot “Daddy does a lot doesn’t he!”
That she noticed was enough to make me feel a bit better!
After that, I kept feeling a little bit better all day to the point I had a shower and was well enough to go out to play pool and to be honest I feel OK sat here…not right but now I know I’ll be ready for Thanksgiving tomorrow
As I mentioned yesterday my body seemed like it was fighting something off little did I know all hell was going break loose overnight. As me guts finally allowed me some respite I decided to go to bed, trying not to disturb Jamie as I did, as she was already asleep. At about 02:30 I woke up shivering and could not get warm no matter what I did I tried to pull the covers around me but every chink allowing a draft in felt like a dagger hitting my skin and made me shiver even more.
Jamie woke up and asked what was wrong and when I said that I was cold she tried to snuggle up to me but this just allowed more cold air hit my skin and it was so painful I just told her to stop and be still.
About 04:30 I woke again this time sweating, burning up to the point I wasn’t sure whether I was dilerious or asleep but the sheets and the pillows were already wet with sweat. I got up and got some Co-Codamol tablets because I was still in achey pain. When I got back in bed the sweat had cooled so it was difficult to get back in although as I lay there I could feel the medicine working and I did fall asleep because the next thing I knew it was 07:30 and I’d survived…
I mentioned to Jamie that I maybe fighting something off right now, because I have been feeling progressively worse all day to the point where I needed to take a couple of flu tablets and a bottle of Lucazade after work to give me a little pep up to get through until bedtime.
She immediately said “ooh take one of these” a high powered vitamin C soluble tablet with added Zinc “it’ll stave your symptoms off, it will!”
That was 3 hours ago and since then me guts have rejected it like it was the devil himself and my body was an exorcist.
OMG it is pouring out of me the same colour and consistency it went its even still fizzy? First me guts cleared me tea out of the way so that there was nothing in the way…. me guts are bubbling like a witches coldren I daren’t fart and I have sat on the bog so many times me arsehole’s like a fecking half chewed blood orange!
Hopefully I am empty but by the sounds of me guts the devil is still me….there is one good thing though its stopped me coughing!
As I have said before I have loved NFL since the early 80s and back then my team was probably New England but probably not seriously just a team doing well enough to get to a Superbowl kind of thing, what I needed was my team and it was only going to be one once I’d met Jamie. I am not sure Pam would have agreed to our relationship if I’d picked anyone else but the Broncos became my team and little did, I know back in 2007 how passionate I would become about “my team”
The highs are always easy to watch Tebow looking like he was “the guy” but discarded when Manning became available, the Manning years were brilliant and seeing that after Jay Cutler & Kyle Orton made me realise how American Football can be played. When Manning rode off into the sunset after #SB50 I thought we would push on becoming a powerhouse for the next few years, how wrong I was
The lows test us as fans and only the die hard’s survive without becoming bitter and negative “it was never like this in my day” well I do not have enough years under my belt to say that, but I do watch enough Denver Broncos games to have an opinion and usually it’s a positive one although that is being tested lately.
The expectation is the problem right now and how we were lorded as contenders before the season started because we broke the bank (two first-round picks, two second-round picks, a fifth-round pick, quarterback Drew Lock, defensive lineman Shelby Harris, and tight end Noah Fant) for Russell Wilson. Everyone thought it was going to be like 2012 again but he is not Peyton Manning, and he was joining along with a completely new couching team a new scheme and let’s face it the team was not as settled as back then either. No-one was expecting the car crash we have witnessed in the first 10 games of this season on the offensive side of the ball. Below is my “gut reaction” to being beaten by the Raiders for the second time this season and slipping to 3 – 7
Let’s start with the HC he is terrible, in over his head and needs to go. The OL has been ignored in the last 3 drafts and is terrible. Our quarter of billion-dollar QB is running for his life behind that OL and is terrible. Our offense is the worst I have witnessed. Our Defence is the polar opposite elite in many positions first in many measurables but are unable to carry such a terrible offense, crumbling late in games having kept the team in every game. If the O could have scored just 18 points in every game this season, we would be 7-3 and looking good to make the playoffs. We are 3-7 our season is effectively over with 7 to play and we have just been beaten by the Raiders (who are a terrible football team) for the second time this season. I haven’t mentioned injuries because it shouldn’t matter (every team has injuries) and could sound like an excuse, but they do matter we have 14 starters out (the most ‘tied’ in the league) some with season ending injuries which needs addressing why are we suffering so many injuries especially ACLs?
Anyway, last night’s game started well but was yet again derailed in the red zone by a Melvin Gordon fumble just before halftime that we never recovered from eventually losing in OT
I will be watching on Sunday when they play the Panthers and fully expecting it all to miraculously be different and our offense to pile points on and our defense to shutout them pussy’s…we’ll see?
#DBFL
I decided today was going to be the day, I had been thinking about it a lot when to break the streak but I had reservations so since Monday it’s been a bone of contention in my mind I was struggling to resolve?
To become someone who drinks again is as big of a decision for me as it was to become someone who doesn’t and my thought process involves concern about what drinking will look like in the future, also missing the buzz, feeling I am missing out, Thanksgiving, Peter and the Test Tube Babies and walking with the lads at the weekend. On the other hand I also like the streak, the time afforded by sobriety, the money saved, and the health benefits too.
I also know I am not a person who will never drink again so I was going to start drinking again today but when Jamie went to bed early I didn’t want to “do it alone” and have her think I was sneaking, even though I am an adult and can do what I want that is not what plays out in my head.
So tonight I actually fetched a bottle of cider from the shed outside to drink as I watch Raiders v Broncos but it remains unopened as I write this because it just didn’t feel quite right, but it was close!
They say a dog is for life and I know that I also know that when everyone wanted a puppy they were not looking at dark winter mornings and nights when it’s cold and wet. They were looking at at summer afternoons running in long grass by a river…
Billy is a great dog most of the time wanting very little beyond feeding and walking twice a day but even that has been a struggle just lately with very wet mornings and dark cold wet night walks when my enthusiasm is very low to non existent but Billy needs it so I do it. I have also forgotten to feed him a couple of times over last couple of weeks I am ashamed to say and to top that I forgot to buy his food today luckily he had a bowl of food tonight but I need to go and get a bag tomorrow morning.
Today we played ball at the green and he loved that I was also very impressed with how he ignored a very angry dog as we passed it. I owe you more than I am giving you right now buddy!
I lay in the bath earlier and this poem was spinning around in my head about the person who means the most to me in the world. I am not a poet I just love this woman ALOT!
When you were blind he taught you where to search
Gods so good he said you’ll find me in a church
Mom and Dad didn’t appreciate the special gift and overlooked your charm
Gods so good he guided you to keep you safe from harm
No future in your sights your only path you took
God’s so good he saved you and showed you where to look
Separated by an ocean with nothing else to try
Gods so good he said remember you can fly
As you knelt to say goodbye and your tears wouldn’t go away
God is so good he said don’t worry Reagan’s going to stay
When you needed money and cleaning seemed to pay
God is so good he said patience a boy is on the way
Happy with your family you thought your life’s complete
Gods so good he told you please don’t drag your feet
Open up your mind, a degree too much it seemed
Gods so good he knew with sacrifice you’d realise what you dreamed
When working for the man was never right for you
God is so good he told you healing minds you need to do
When thoughts of a happy family with so much love felt dumb
Gods plan made you realise just what you could become!
Bought a broken TV to replace our broken TV.
Recently we started seeing a white spot on the bottom of the screen of our Samsung telly and it was tolerable but slightly annoying but then another brighter one appeared which was very annoying especially watching SAS rogue heroes when desert warfare looked like it was lit by two suns.
Jamie bought a new LG TV which was delivered this afternoon but the screen was smashed and on closer inspection the box was damaged in the exact same place so we have to sort out a replacement tomorrow and persevere with three suns now as it’s getting worse
We talked about shopping tonight in the pub and how Amazon has made it so easy all year round and especially at Christmas to avoid crowds, when Mike pipes up “me and Annette go shopping have a wander round the shops for few hours then go the pub…” I was like “I couldn’t think of anything worse, just couldn’t do it! If I wanted something I would drive to the shop, go in find it buy it then drive home” Mike said we’ll go shopping even if don’t want anything?
Sorry but shopping is just the worse thing ever and if you have to do it with a woman and watch her try stuff on and not buy anything, I’d rather stick pins in me eyes!
Now if you could wander round Screwfix….
Yesterday’s post I mentioned I like streaks and blog posts have become obsessive because WordPress tells me everyday not forget to blog and then praises me for blogging everyday for the last number of days. Today will be 61 days in a row and its so annoying when I forget to blog and I have only forgotten 3 times this year, the first time broke 225 day streak.
Some days though I struggle for inspiration, as you will already be fully aware of if you have read a lot of MyLifeChanging but I love writing like this I just wish I was more interesting
Today I had a bacon butty for my dinner
