Beginning 2022 with COVID is frustrating because I am also beginning 2022 50 days sober and I should be feeling better than I have ever felt on January 1st but I am struggling to shake off the fatigue, lethargy and headaches. So 2022 began with a walk with Billy up to the Lime Beds I felt OK but I thought I would pack a flask of coffee and a scone and take my sweet time and I sat up there with Billy and thought about the year ahead and my sobriety.
I began sobriety a day at a time because that’s what I had to do but it has gotten easier as the days and weeks have passed, I set goals for myself and achieved them but as time’s gone on I have found that alcohol has become further from my thoughts. I am not saying it’s gone but it’s not my first thought anymore I have gone a whole day without thinking about drinking which is a big step in my opinion because it shows I am retraining my brain retraining the drinking habits into something else.
Dry January is my next goal, it should be a doddle because my last goal was a calendar month which I achieved at midnight last night so another month without Christmas and New Year partying in it, should be easier.
Self analysis is not my strong point so comparing myself after 50 days abstinence from what I was before is difficult, I have lost weight is an easy one, because I have, I don’t think I have changed anything else diet or exercise wise except alcohol so up to now over half a stone was just from drinking…! I think my sleep is deeper and less broken I guess? I have sugar cravings which I originally didn’t have but can see this as a substitute which concerns me in case that is just another habit to break? Lucozade is my chosen fix at the moment but I am also extremely thirsty all the time since contracting COVID so we’ll see once that does one! I have money in my pocket, yep I can not deny’ I have not made it to too many Januarys with a bank balance COVID isolation helps but even before that not spending money on alcohol made a big difference.
Health wise I am struggling to access that today as I felt a million dollars but by 3pm I was in bed feeling terrible Jamie said she felt her symptoms resembled a hangover and I have to agree thats exactly how I felt earlier so I went to bed for 3 hours woke up felt as bad as I did before so I took two flu tablets and drank more Lucazade and I felt ok so at the moment health depends on Morrisons Max strength flu capsuls so I will have to come back to health benefits lol
These ramblings have taken me all day and I was so motivated sat with Billy ready to blog but as my health wilted so did my motivation and creativity….
Dry January and play the guitar by next New Years Day, todays goals?
