2022

Went to the Dentist for the first time in I have no idea how long definitely years but got a pretty good assessment considering. He could tell I put the effort into cleaning them and apart from a bit of discolouration they are in good condition and after a scale and polish was told see you in 6 months.

Great piece of advice “buy an electric toothbrush and brush twi e a day” and you won’t go far wrong. I have stuck to that advice especially since giving up drinking and its obviously paying dividends…?

I went Von’s grave today for the first time in too long and was dismayed at how it looked, designed her headstone so that I didn’t have to visit every week and throw away dead flowers and replace with new ones and I realised I had not even bothered to spend 5 minutes there this year?

Today I returned with plants and spent 15 minutes removing the weeds, tidying the grass and cleaning the stone. I knelt there and thought about her and the fact she passed away just after her 50th birthday and how I am already 52 and have so much life to live still!

It’s wierd to think how much I have already done since I turned 50 and how many things I am looking forward to in the future. That said I know it’s important that you live today like it could be my last because all those things I am looking forward to, are not guaranteed.

Your memories are who you are, and I have 52 years worth that make me who I am and as I stood up and looked at what I’d done, I thought 15 minutes for a lifetime that’s nothing she deserves more than that and vowed to make more of an effort again.

With no plans, Saturday meandered through getting out of bed at 9:30 put a load of washing in and then took Billy for a walk. Cleaned the kitchen with an eye on the clock because Lincoln had gymnastics, the hour between 12 & 1 was not wasted I think if he applied himself more he would achieve his dream of tumbling.

Dog food from Wheelock and a trip to a garden centre Lincoln slept in the car while I bought plants for the cemetery, then pasties for his perfect Saturday lunch.

Videos of people building sheds dozing on the couch the Broncos winning Superbowl 50 and being locked out of the cemetery, an average take away and Pistol was all I did today

I spoke to my dad which wasn’t a waste and spent time with Lincoln, I consoled Reagan when I saw she was upset, I improved Jamie internet connection and emptied the washing basket non of this was a waste its just what I do!

A man I have played pool against for years was killed along with his son who was pillion on his sidecar as they competed in the Isle of Man TT Road race and I am not sure why I can’t stop thinking about the brutality of their deaths and how his wife and mother must be feeling losing him and her 21 year old son in that manner at the same time… I didn’t know him that well but he was a nice bloke and I feel sorry for her.

It made me think about Von

Lay in the bath tonight and watched the first episode of Pistol the biopic series about the Sex Pistols and was pleasantly surprised having only heard it reviewed by John Lydon who was not consulted about the project so detests it. Anyway, I am looking forward to watching the next 5 episodes and how the tell the story of Johnny Rotten without his permission.

I think Jamie’s life is almost complete now with our new Super Kingsize Bed and now the TV hung on the wall at the foot of it. She can sit propped up in bed and read or now watch TV too.

Work is annoying me right now with the powers running it taking the company in completely the wrong direction and from an IT perspective I am practically unable to manage what I am supposed to manage and its only going to get worse with the PMS now delayed until January next year at the earliest?

Cricket was good tonight I sat watching Lincoln and noticed he was not looking at the wicket when during his action which I had not noticed before and pointed it out and told him to keep his eyes fixed on the target, fixed on where you’re bowling. He gave me the usual “I know!” Well you clearly don’t keep your eyes on the target, 5 minutes later he’d taken 3 wickets and had a beaming smile on his face “Daddy did you see, I got 3 out?”

Told you, mate! It made me smile because I’d coached that and it just shows how important coaching really is, in that very amall example.

Ah well today was OK but time for bed now, hopefully the weekend is here and I have nothing planned…

Got a call from me brother tonight and we got on about tools something I love to talk about but my interest in everything tools pales into insignificance where our kid is concerned. He’d seen my shed building project on Facebook and was keen to know where I was upto and my plans for what’s next to do.

We talked about Karen and how she is doing and what treatments are next for her because there is still a need for more chemo but she can have her lung drain removed which I am sure shows progress in her recovery.

Earlier Lincoln had stressed to us that he wanted to be early to Youth Club because of its popularity they were going to have to restrict attendees to 40 and he and his mates had made a plan to be first there to guarantee admission. So Mommy Lincoln and me took Billy for a walk to Market Field and played football on there until his mates turned up and they all went in leaving me and Mommy to walk home.

We had a great time playing football on the field laughing and giggling and generally having fun and I think that image would have been great to see and would portray just how happy our family actually is to anyone who saw us?

The numbers big 207 or 7 months (almost), no matter who I tell these numbers to they all react, either shocked or impressed and mot say they couldn’t do it! I have to say barring the odd craving I don’t find it hard to be sober. I have bought some tins of appletizer as a sort of treat to drink at night but they don’t do anything for me, I would probably prefer a coffee if the caffeine didn’t keep me awake at night.

Actually, being sober has become the normal and I just don’t drink anymore but I am struggling with “the year sober” being 2 weeks into November and the Broncos being in London at Halloween I have a fantasy of having a nice meal in a restaurant washed down with a glass of red wine…? A silly dream that doesn’t matter but if anything annoys me it’s the denial that I can’t have that glass of wine at least until the years done otherwise its not a year.

We’ll see, nearer the time, it may not even be a thing when the time comes?

Lincoln was picked for Middlewich U11s away at Weston against Nantwich and by all accounts the U11s had done quite well so far this season but tonight if it could go wrong it did…more than once!

In these situations you have manage young minds and make sure they do not lose heart because even the greatest teams in all sports have a bad game but its how they come back after it that makes them great. Tonight was a thrashing and Lincoln walked off the field and just said “Let’s just go home!” I talked to him on the way home about winning not being the be all, enjoying playing will always be the most important thing and if you do, winning will happen.

He understood what I was saying but it was obviously a bad night…

They say a photo tells 1000 words, well the one below should at least tell you that the 10 year old and the 3 year old were both laying down exhausted because the 52 year old had wore them out?

The bathroom wall has been back to brick for weeks now and today we had arranged for Dale to come and plaster it and the bathroom ceiling so once I’d taken Billy I made sure everyone had used the bathroom and was just about to go myself and he turned.

Now, I’m afraid I can’t just go if I’m not ready and although I have tried throughout the afternoon once he’d left once I had missed my morning constitutional I knew it was going take time to get back in tune…I am sat here watching TV at 22:30 drinking apple juice hoping it’ll work some magic lol

HRH Queen Elizabeth II today celebrates 70 years on the throne, she is already the longest serving monarch this country has ever had and as times have changed in the last 70 years I think she will forever remain the longest. This will be the last platinum jubilee not just in our lifetime but ever in my opinion

I remember 1977 when it was the silver jubilee and we had a street party in Cledford Crescent and everyone joined in, it really seemed to bring the community together back then, and Hubert Drive tried to show a bit of patriotism with Union Jacks and bunting flying especially around the middle of the drive where we live.

Cledford Crescent 1977 Silver Jubilee

Watching the celebrations and pageantry on TV there is no country that can hold a candle to Great Britain trooping the colour etc is just stunning but it’s obvious that the royal elders are all looking very old no more ao the Duke of Kent who stood with the Queen on the balcony of Buckingham Palace instead of Philip who has already sadly passed away.

For there to be another Platinum Jubilee a Royal heir would have to become king at a young age and looking at those inline Prince William is 39 so he qould already have to live until he’s 109 if he became King tomorrow and those inline after him will not become King until he has been on the throne so this is the first and probably the last ever 70th Jubilee

God Save the Queen