2022
Got a reply from my email to my employer basically saying shut up and do as you are told which wass not unexpected but still disheartening. It means the future of where I work is in the hands of a company that sees no future for me in that company but has no idea what to do with me other than manage my exit?
IT Manager by name only…I didn’t think I could care less, but clearly I can!
As days get shorter and the dark nights creep in relentlessly summer seems so far away now and the rain can be torrential and persistent, I always struggle with my mood around this time but I am making a conscious effort to be upbeat as much as possible. This morning me and the Billster got very wet but I tried to enjoy the walk regardless and on my return tried to sing and be happy before work to the point where Jamie said I was annoying “how very dare she?”
We have a trip to Seville planned in a couple of weeks which should mean we see the sun again at least for a few days before Winter takes over completely… the a trip down to London for the Broncos v the Jags at the end of October. We also plan to see Peter and the Test Tube Babies the day after Thanksgiving I have a Phoenix 5 walk the day after that. I have tickets to see the Damned 3rd November which I booked 2 years ago but it was delayed due to Covid all in all I have quite a lot of stuff to look forward to which should help get through the next couple of months
I sat telling Jamie about my morning as we ate lunch together, one of the best perks of working from home, and telling her about fixing their broadband at Lymm and while I was there sorting out the alarm system, x-ray backup, email attachment issues and charging an tablet they’d not seen work forever and how pleased they were that I was there to help.
It made me feel really good, that I was able help and to receive praise for what I was able to achieve and I realised that was one of the things I enjoy the most about work. I get so much pride and satisfaction from praise and it’s what’s missing most days when I feel hamstrung by the bureaucracy created by my new employer
After our conversation she mentioned how animated I had been recounting my morning and how lovely it was to see the fire in me burn again.
I just think it’s a real shame that fire rarely burns but it was even more interesting to learn just how stimulating I find praise and being liked? You could pay me twice the wage (I wouldn’t say no) but it’s not money that motivates me!
With trepidation we took Billy to the groomer knowing he wasn’t going to like it but we wanted to get him bathed and brushed and a hygiene trim at the rear. Jamie dropped in off and went to do a bit of shopping having been told it will take one hour.
Upon her return she was greeted by the lady groomer with the words “I get the feeling that’s not his favourite thing to do!” lol
“Oh no did he bite you?”
“Oh no, but he did get a bit nippy!”
Hilarious, I can imagine he did if my attempts at brushing him have been although he ‘tolerates’ it he does get “a bit nippy”
Anyway, she wants him back again so couldn’t have been that bad then?
With the Saints playing the Vikings in London while the Marathon takes place the day after a rail strike it was always going to be tough for Mommy to get home but with Lincoln leaving for a 4 day residential she was always going make if it was possible.
We got the call that she was on a packed train but would be back in Crewe at 18:54 and right o time she was back with us, and everything was all well again. It’s just better when she’s here!
There’s a point when you have enough in the bank that there is something spare and you can give some back, and I felt at that point today when I st with me brother having a brew and passing the time when I knew that’s probably what he needs more than anything?
I have spent many years taking with nothing to give back but I am in a very good place in my life that I am able to give back to a person I know would drop everything to help me and has done many times so sat there maybe giving him a break chatting about anything and everything for a couple of hours
He fetched Lincoln’s birthday presents which he obviously loved but he also fetched some really greatnews that Auntie Karen might come out of hospital tomorrow after recovering well from her operation and although she was obviously a big part of the conversation we just chatted until he had to go…hopefully it helped even though he seemed fine anyway?
With Mommy down in London I finished work and got to cooking tea which was steak and baked potatoes so I needed to get the taters in the oven allowing me to do some tidying before getting the steaks on. An hour or so later I shouted both Reagan and Lincoln to come and not eat it and in true annoying fashion Lincoln said he was ill and Reagan said she was scared that Lincoln was ill, she went back upstairs Lincoln went to lay down on the sofa I swore alot threw their food in the bin and ate mine.
Lincoln is ill he is still laid next to me on the sofa asleep which a good indication that there’s something wrong because hes not on his XBOX but will only be ill until Sunday night which is what he is most worried about because he goes on a residential on Monday morning and I can’t imagine how devastated he’ll be if he is still ill!
Reagan came down for food later on an took it back to her room understeer strict instruction that the crockery was to be brought back down tonight which hasn’t happened yet as I write this but will happen or there’ll be trouble
Reagan felt ill again today and decided she was too ill to go to school and phoned her Mom who was on a train to London because I wasn’t sympathetic enough when I rang her from the traffic jam I was stuck in?
We’d overslept I say “we” I mean Jamie had and it meant instead of me being home to get both children ready for school after dropping her off at the train station I was trying to negotiate Crewe rush hour talking to a 12 year old that had already decided today was not a school day!
To then be told I lack sympathy by someone sat on a lovely train down to London with her feet up probably nodding off while the lovely train driver does the hard work and while my lovlier wife rests her lovely mind before starting work later… I just feel that going to work or school is 95% in your mind you have to accept that is what you have to do everyday if you want to achieve anything and its that 5% you can overcome that tells you, you can’t do it today.
I don’t doubt Reagan was ill but when I spoke to her she’d already decided she wasn’t going so there was no point carrying on with the conversation was all, no I don’t sympathise with people who have a day off for a cold and allowing her to have a second day off without letting her know how I feel about it was not an option!
Let’s hope tomorrow starts a bit better.
As mornings go it was up and very much down, Mommy had been up with Reagan who had a temperature and needed medicating to get back to sleep so Mommy went up to check on her, first thing and decided to keep her off school for the day. While up there she collected all the dirty crockery from her room to bring down and was halfway down when she lost her footing and fell the rest of the way.
Now I had just sat down on the toilet and heard all this then silence, “What’s happened?” Lincoln informed me that Mommy had fallen down the stairs “Don’t touch her, I’m coming” as I did me trousers up in double swift time!
“I’m OK!” gave me the hope and reassurance I needed as I opened the door to find Mommy on her back at the bottom of Reagan’s stairs surrounded by cups and glasses, and although very shaken, all the injuries were minor although she would probably tell you they felt like major injuries but luckily she escaped as walking wounded and was able to carry on with her day although painfully.
I saw a Kingfisher earlier on my walk with Billy its one of those sights that are worth stopping for and taking a breath and just watching it which I did for a couple of minutes while it dipped into the water, before flying off.
I needed to keep my new shut when I am inside so I made a lovely new locking mechanism as a temporary solution until the door is finished
That should keep them out……I mean secure it while I work!